Page 47 of A Master's Destiny
Rather than make excuses, I tell him the truth. “A sub was hurt last night because I failed to check the temperature of the wax. The mistake is inexcusable, and I cannot forgive myself for the oversight. Therefore, I have decided to quit the program.”
“Why would you do that?” he asks in a grave tone.
I frown, surprised by the question. “I hurt a person under my care with the simplest of instruments. It’s obvious I cannot be trusted.”
“A good Dominant owns and accepts responsibilities for his mistakes.”
“I do accept it, which is why I must step down.”
Master Nosh furrows his brows. “You are not accepting responsibility. You are running away from it.”
His words provoke my anger. “You’re wrong! I’m protecting submissives I might inadvertently harm in the future.”
“What about your submissive last night? Honey is still in need of your care.”
I violently disagree and remind him, “I broke her trust last night because of sheer carelessness on my part. The last thing she needs is me.”
“Mr. Davis, it is obvious to me that your drive to be a perfectionist is more important to you than the well-being of your sub.”
I stand up in protest and shout, “No! I’m willing to walk away from something I am passionate about because I realize I am not fit to be a Dominant.”
“That is pure arrogance on your part. Your duty right now is to heal the damage you’ve caused. Honey needs you to accept responsibility and help guide her.”
I look at him in disbelief. “I broke her trust, Master Nosh. Why in the hell would she want anything to do with me?”
“Because she gave you the gift of her submission and trust. Do not dishonor her by discarding those gifts so lightly.”
I sit back down, challenged by his words. The Head Trainer is right about one thing. This entire time I have been so focused on my failure that I’ve failed to think how I could help honey.
I lower my head in shame.
“What you do after this is completely up to you, Mr. Davis. But your submissive deserves your time and energy right now.”
I nod. “I see that now, but I am at a loss as to how to proceed from here. The last thing I want to do is cause her any more harm.”
“Honey has asked to scene with you again. You will honor her wish.”
I stare at him in disbelief. “I’m shocked she wants to.”
Master Nosh sits back in his chair. “It is important to speak to your submissive after a scene ends badly. It is the reason I asked you to go to my office—so that the two of you could talk.”
I groan, suddenly realizing how selfish I’ve been. When my submissive needed me the most, I disappeared on her…
I meet Master Nosh’s stern gaze. “You’re right. I was not thinking of my duty as a Dominant. I need to rectify the situation as soon as possible.”
“Good. Honey is waiting for you right now.”
“Now?”
“The sooner you rectify your mistakes, the better.”
My heart begins to race as he reaches into a drawer of his desk and hands me a set of three candles. “These candles burn at a low temperature.”
I stare at them, condemning myself once again for purchasing the wrong candles. “I hope you won’t be offended when I test each one,” I tell him.
“I would expect no less. I have one more piece of advice for you, Mr. Davis.” His next words hit me out of left field.
“The compassion you feel toward others should also be directed toward yourself.”
