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He closes the doors, and I listen to him as he barks orders at me on how to seal the house, as the storm hits.Loud rumbles of thunder echo throughout the house.We seal up each window, each door, latching them for security.
With everything secured, I find Victor in the main sitting room, and that was when he heard the rumble of thunder, the whip of lightening, and then our electricity went out.
Chapter Nine
Victor
The generator kicked in as soon as the electricity went out.Ivan did think of everything.I can’t believe I lost my temper with him, and Freya heard the conversation.She wasn’t supposed to hear anything.
Damn it.I was just being a little bitch.I wanted to be back in my territory, defending it.I wanted to be the one to kill the fucking Grid, for daring to accept a reward for the death of my wife.I’m not used to being cast onto a beautiful deserted island, just sitting on my ass doing absolutely nothing.This is not who I am.Never did I sit around waiting for shit to happen, and it was pissing me off to do so now.
“Do you think it will pass over?”Freya asked.
I don’t know if she even realized she had been screaming with her sobbing.It had been heartbreaking to watch.Seeing the look of pain and anger, and ...I don’t know what else.There was a lot going on in Freya’s head.Shit I didn’t even understand, and from what she yelled at me, I know I had caused a lot of her grief, and that made me feel like a piece of shit.I didn’t want to hurt her, and yet the irony was, I tried to keep my distance.
Once again, when it came to my wife, I had fucked up.I didn’t know how the other Brigadiers did it.They were all happily married, but I didn’t know if they had fucked up, even just a little.Women hadn’t been important to me.Not since my mother and sister.Sure, I loved to play and fuck, and there had been plenty of women who liked to do exactly that.It had been a long time since I did that.
I was not going to step out on my wife.Our vows meant something.I had given my word to Freya.It was fucked up, even in my own head, because I had promised to love, honor, and cherish her, yet I hadn’t done either.I’d been fucking cruel.
Freya was sitting on one of the sofas, holding onto one of the pillows.She looked terrified.
“You don’t like storms?”I asked.
“I’m not a fan.”
I nod.I didn’t care about storms.Moving in close to her, I sat down and she tried to wriggle away, but I wrapped an arm around her, stopping her.
“You can fight me all you want, but you’re not going to fucking win.Stop being a pain in the ass, and let me comfort you.”
She opened her mouth and I don’t know why, but I felt she was going to have some wiseass statement.
“Shut the fuck up, and just accept that I can help you right now,” I said.
This silenced her.And for that, I was fucking grateful.
She sunk against me, but I also felt how tense her body was.She clearly didn’t want to be close to me.I didn’t care, at least that is what I told myself.Holding onto her, I felt her tense with every rumble of thunder.I didn’t mind the storm.
