I try not to get ahead of myself. Bella hasn't taken the test yet. She's been upfront about heruncertainty.
I'm not going to talk her out of an abortion if that's what shewants.
"You're thinking something," she mumbles into mychest.
"I'mthinkingsomething."
Shenods.
"Andyou're—"
"Only thinking of younaked."
"Goon…"
"Well, right now you're wearing those awful boxers. This would be a lot more fun if they were gone, and we were on thecouch—"
"And you were bouncing in my lap with your tits in mymouth?"
"Exactly." She looks up at me, her brown eyes wide with need. "But I don't think you could fit bothatonce."
"Is that achallenge?"
"Yes, please." She nods to the couch. "Rightnow."
"This first." I stare back into her eyes. "It's best to take the test first thing in themorning."
"You were lookingitup?"
"You feel asleepearly."
"I've been tired… I guess that doessuggest…"
"Could be a million things, angel. You work hardasfuck."
She smiles. "You called meangel."
"And?"
"You drop theangelwhen you'reupset."
I have to laugh. "Am I thatobvious?"
"More."
I pull her body into mine. Fuck, she's warm and she's soft and she's alive. Bella has always been fucking amazing, but these last two years, I've gotten to watch herblossom.
It's a privilege, seeing her this vibrant andhappy.
I won't let anything get in the wayofthat.
"I'm only upset 'cause this hurts you, angel." I breath her in. Fuck, Bella really iseverything.
"You don't have feelings one way oranother?"
"I do, but it pales in comparison to how much I want to bewithyou."
"That'scheesy."