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I step back. “Of course.” Closing the door behind him, it feels weird to have him in my space. That familiar scent of us wraps around me like a soft, warm blanket.

Bob jumps off the sofa and walks toward Jasper. “Meow,” he says as he winds through his legs.

Jasper bends over and reaches down, picking up my orange tabby. He scratches his head as he looks at me. I’m immediately trapped in his intense gaze. His eyes are such a light blue they look silverish gray.

Pain slices through me. “What are you doing here?” I take a deep breath. Unsure if I really want to know the reason.

“I was at my therapy session and we talked about some stuff that just made me want to see you.”

Jasper’s answer surprises me. He swore therapy wasn’t for him, when things were ending with us, I couldn’t get him to go. At the time, I was grasping at anything to help save us, but I felt like he just gave up on us without really fighting.

“Oh, I’m glad you decided to talk to someone.” I lead him to the sofa, and we sit down on opposite ends. “Um… I’m not really sure what else to say right now.”

He sets Bob down and he comes over to me. Standing on his hind legs and meowing at me. It’s like he’s a human, it has to be the weirdest thing.

Jasper laughs softly. “That cat is so weird.”

“He is, but he’s my baby.” I look at the cat and then back at Jasper. Tears begin to blur my vision. Where the hell did they come from? Blinking, I try to stop them from falling.

I feel the sofa move and suddenly I’m in Jasper’s arms. A painful sob rips from my throat. His hold on me tightens and I grip his shirt like I’m afraid he’s going to float away. I cry and cry until my throat is raw.

Pulling back enough to look in his eyes, I know I’m a mess, but I don’t care. Suddenly his lips are on mine. I should push him away, this shouldn’t happen, but instead I grab on to him tighter. He pulls me onto his lap as our kiss continues.

God, I’ve missed him and this so much. He forces my mouth open and his tongue duels with mine. I spear his hair with my fingers and grind against his hard cock. I swallow his moan and can’t take it anymore.

I lift, reaching between us. I quickly undo his jeans, freeing his cock. Shimmying out of one leg of my shorts, I grab his cock and line it up with my wet pussy. We groan in unison as I sink down, taking him to the hilt.

Jasper pulls his mouth from mine. “Fuck, I’ve missed your pussy,” he whispers. “Ride me, baby.”

I begin moving my hips back and forth while he moves me up and down. I’m hurdling toward orgasm.

He pulls up my shirt and since I’m not wearing a bra, he’s able to immediately latch on to my nipple. Sucking on it in deep pulls makes my pussy clench around his cock as I fuck him. I hug him to my breast as he reaches between us and begins rubbing my clit.

My orgasm hits me out of nowhere and I cry out as he begins fucking me down on his cock. In no time, he pulls me down, holding me in place while he comes deep inside me.

I realize what I’ve done and suddenly, I feel sick. I just used him for sex, I fucked him at a time we were both vulnerable.

“I-I am so sorry.” I get off him and quickly dress. Panic sets in and I pace back and forth. “I didn’t mean for that to happen.”

I hear him rustling around, he comes to stand in front of me. Stopping me from pacing, he places his hands on my shoulders. “What are you talking about, baby? I wanted this, if you didn’t notice I was a willing participant.”

“This can’t happen again. It can only confuse things and hurt us more.” I’m crying again. “I can’t do this.”

“I saw you,” he blurts out. “I saw you with that guy and I saw you almost kiss.”

My face heats up. “Oh God. He’s just my friend. That almost kiss was a mistake.” It was, honestly Jake’s nephew interrupting us was for the best. It could’ve changed everything.

He begins to pace back and forth. “I saw you. I watched you hold that little girl in your arms. For once the thought of a child didn’t sound so bad.” His eyes turn glassy. “It also got me thinking about my dad and then Mom and Jamie. I—I don’t know what I want, but if you’re willing, would you go to therapy with me?”

I run right into his arms. “Of course, I will.”

He kisses my temple and continues to hold me for a long time.

Chapter Nine

Lorelei

My leg bounces as I wait for Jasper to arrive. We are having our first therapy session today. I’m extremely nervous about it, but happy to be here. It’s been two weeks since Jasper and I had sex. Things are awkward between us, and we’ve only spoken to each other a few times.

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