My eyes meet his. “I’ve wanted this for so long…wanted you.” I confess, needing him to know my feelings now that we are doing this.
He leans back his eyes on me as he says, “Me too.” He drags my lips back to his as he urges me closer and closer to the edge. My hips rocking against his thick length. The feel of him against me driving me crazy. He’s so fucking hot. My heart pounds in my chest as I take this all in. Forcing myself to feel it all. His stubbled cheeks rubbing against my skin as he takes what he wants from me. Something I’m more than willing to give. For the first time wanting to give.
When our lips finally part I say, “Can I have you?” I’m not sure why I feel the need to ask, maybe it’s because it’s been taken from me unwillingly or maybe because I want confirmation that he wants this as much as I do, but I ask it anyway. A little smile tilts on his full lips making him look even more gorgeous.
“Princess, you’ve always had me.” His hands cup my cheeks as he studies my face like he’s trying to memorize every nuance. His beautiful soft gray eyes drilling holes into my soul. I love this man. As much as a person as fucked up as me could possibly love someone else.
I lean forwards taking his lips in mine while working his belt free, lifting his hips and helping me lower his jeans before pulling them free. He drags me back up to his lap before gripping the base of his long, thick cock. Bigger than I remember it, the one time I saw it on my sixteenth birthday. I’ve been imagining I was in her shoes since then and now I finally am. He’s finally mine.
“You sure you want this?” He tilts my chin, making sure he can see my eyes, waiting for my answer.
“God yesss.” I hiss, trying to lower myself onto his thick head, desperate to finally feel him. He holds me still, not allowing me to lower until my eyes meet his again then he lowers me slowly, savoring every inch as it slides into my warm heat.
“God, you feel so fuckin’ good, princess.” He grunts as he continues to lower me. I whimper around his thick girth.
“More, Bones. I need more.” I pant wanting to slam down on him, even knowing it would likely bring pain due to his size, but I need to feel connected to him.
“Easy, baby. You’ll take all of me.” His smug look tells me he will make sure of it. He moans as our pelvises finally meet and he’s fully seated inside me. He holds still allowing me to adjust to his size. I drag my fingers through the hairs at the base of his neck, loving the vulnerable moment where it’s just us. The feeling of us together, finally. I lift myself before slamming back down like I wanted to, causing him to hiss out in pleasure. “That’s it, princess. Bounce on my cock. Show me how badly you’ve wanted this dick.” And I do, I show him all the years I’ve spent rubbing myself to thoughts of him, how badly I wished I could have this and so much more with him. Everything with him.
“I’m close. God, I’m so close.” I moan as I bounce harder, his mouth moving to suck on my nipples, flicking his tongue back and forth as he squeezes both my boobs in his big hands. Working me into a frenzy. I will never get enough of him, ever. “Bones.” I moan, unable to bear how amazing he feels inside me. His hand slides down my taunt stomach before circling my clit. Causing me to scream out as all the sensations burst into light behind my eyes.
“Fuck.” He pants as he stands, lifting me with him before pinning me between him and the wall. He drills into me, his hips thrusting faster and faster as he builds me higher, bringing me closer to the brink all over again. “Come for me again, princess. Let me feel this tight cunt choke my cock.” His hands squeeze tighter on my ass as he rocks my world. His length filling me to the brim while rubbing over every sensitive nerve inside me.
“Yesss!” I yell, not even bothering to keep quiet as I explode around him. My vision fades for a moment as I hit the peak. Still carrying me, he shuts the water off and the next thing I know I’m on my back, him laying over me, his cock still buried deep inside me.
“I ain’t done yet, baby.” He smirks as he drives his hips deeper in this position. His hand working between us before I feel his thumb flicking back and forth over my swollen nub. “I need more, baby. Give me more.” His voice is heady and deep as he commands in my ear. Following his instructions, I do. I break, give him the last little piece of me that I’d been keeping from him. This man has had my heart since before I knew I had one.
“I love you.” The words tumble from my lips, unwilling to stay trapped any longer. His eyes widen and I know I’ve just made a huge mistake. His hips slow and I’m scared he’s going to pull away, so I lock my legs around his hips. “Please. I’m sorry, just please don’t stop.” I beg, needing him to continue. I rake my nails down his back, as he thrusts into me once again. I clamp down tighter on him, wanting to feel him come inside me. He groans as I squeeze, and I know he’s getting closer. I lift my hips, meeting him pump for pump until I feel him twitching and pulsing inside me. “Give it to me, Please. Bones…” My voice breathy with desperation and exertion.
“Fuck. Fuck!” He roars as he explodes inside me, filling me to the brim with his hot cum. He rocks back and forth, allowing himself to empty entirely before slowly pulling out. He drops down beside me, his arm laying lazily over my waist before dragging me into his side. His nose burying into my still damp hair.
The silence is heavy and instead of drifting off into a blissful post orgasmic sleep, my stomach clamps in regret. He doesn’t feel the same, of course he doesn’t, why would he? Wanting to fuck someone and loving them are two very different things.
“I’m sorry.” I tell him, needing to address this before it ruins everything we have together. If it hasn’t already. I stay on my side, eyes focused on the wall, unable to even look at him. I’m crushed and embarrassed.
He blows out a breath and stands, making his way to the bathroom to grab his clothes and mine. He tosses mine into the hamper while putting his back on. Wet pants and all. It looks like he’s rung them out though at least. He runs his hands through his hair, which is a tic when he’s uncomfortable or frustrated.
“I gotta go. Hope you’re okay.” He leaves, closing the door softly behind him.
“Fuck,” I scream into my pillow, muffling the sound along with my tears. How did tonight get so fucked up. Now I wish I had just let myself go numb. It’s better than the gut-wrenching pain of losing the only person I’ve ever loved.
Chapter Seven
Bones (22)
“Fuck!” I punch the wall, barely even feeling the pain now that I’ve completely numbed myself with alcohol. What the fuck have I done? I took advantage of her, all because I couldn’t control my fuckin’ dick. I fucked up everything… then I walked away.
The look in her eyes when she rounded the cage was a look I never wanted to see again. Those soulless, lost eyes of the little girl from the crate.
Jesus Christ.
“Take it easy, boy. And you’re gunna fix that fuckin’ hole.” Gage grunts behind me as he eyes the massive hole in the wall. I just grunt in response not really givin’ a fuck at the moment. Gage chuckles. “So, what’d you do?” He crosses his arms over his chest and lights up a cigarette like he’s ready for a story.
“Didn’t peg you as a gossip.” I smirk as I sip more of my drink. He raises an eyebrow.
“Quite the shit and just tell me.” His tone, no longer holding the sense of humor.
“I fucked, princess.” I mumble, not ashamed of it just regretting how it all went down and he whistles.