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“Don’t stop…I’m…fuck…I’m going to…” She cries out as her pussy milks my cock, making me groan. I lean down and bite her neck as I push in as deep as I can get, coming deep inside her pulsing pussy. I work my hips slowly bringing us back down from our release and pleasure.

17

Bianca

4th Week in Port Angeles

“Infinity”by Jaymes Young

Alexander went inside the bar to grab a few things. He said he wants to bring every single thing on my list to fruition. I didn’t know what to say, so I just agreed.

I open the door as Josh walks out of the side door with a smoke in his mouth.

“Hey, Josh,” I say calmly.

He has been helping Alexander a lot with the bar and the restaurant. He doesn’t seem to mind it, though. He seems to enjoy talking to people and enjoys all the girls drawn to him when he is running the bar.

“Hey, B,” he says with a smile.

It has been a while since I heard that nickname. Only my close friends have ever called me that, and I haven’t really made any friends here. Josh is the only one, but I haven’t tried getting to know anyone else either. When I am not writing or working, Iam with Alexander. He made me dinner the other night, and Josh came by. It was nice seeing them laugh and mess around.

“You going to be okay this weekend?” I ask him.

He nods and smiles. “Yeah, I got it covered.”

I nod and smile back at him.

I watch as he lights up his smoke. I slide out of the truck and walk over to him. He hands me one without me needing to say anything. He lights it as I take a deep drag.

“He is happy, you know,” Josh says, breaking the silence.

“What?” I ask, a little confused by his words.

“Alex, I haven’t seen him like this in a really long time,” he says, looking me in the eyes.

“I’m glad,” I smile.

“Just do me a favor, okay?” Josh asks me.

I nod. “Okay.”

He takes another drag of his smoke and exhales. “Don’t hurt him. I don’t think he would survive losing you.”

I nod and take another drag, his words hitting my heart like stones. He is not the only one who wouldn’t survive. Even though I tried to keep him at a distance, he found his way into my heart, and now he has it, all of it. Even if I haven’t admitted the words out loud yet. Alexander came crashing into my life when I was lost, vulnerable, and shattered. Slowly, he has been picking up the pieces and putting me back together again.

“I don’t know if you know it, but he is in love with you and completely obsessed. Losing you would shatter him, and honestly, I don’t think he would be able to put himself back together again,” he says in a pained voice.

“Why are you telling me this?” I ask, hearing my voice crack a little.

“Because I see how you are both shattered, trying to find a way to heal. I am just asking you to be aware that my best friend will never willingly let you go, B,” he confesses confidently.

I believe him and know what he is saying is true, which is why I am terrified. I have always had a way of fucking things up, even when I try hard to keep things together. I don’t want to fuck this up. I don’t want to hurt Alexander. I never want to do that.

“Thank you for telling me,” I whisper to him, letting this whole conversation take over my mind.

“You both deserve to be happy, and I hope that is with you both together,” he says with a warm and gentle smile.

“Dibs, dude,” Alexander says as he walks down the steps with a few sleeping bags in his arms.

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