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“You happened, Shane. You happened,” I responded, still in a daze.

Slowly, he smiled.

“You knew you were going to do this to me, didn’t you?” I asked.

He tapped me once on the thigh.

“Fucker,” I smiled.

“Kace, I didn’t ask for this. I wasn’t looking for a girlfriend. I wasn’t trying to find a partner, a wife, a whatever. All I know is this – you entered my life, and when you did, things changed. Things inside of me changed. The feelings you cause me to feel, they’re different. They’re not like other feelings I have ever had. Now that I have felt this, I know what everyone talks about. I know what it’s like to feel as if you need someone to just survive. It scares me. You scare me,” he said as he sat up in the bed.

“I scare you? Seriously?” I slid off of his legs and lay down beside him, my head resting on my hand.

“The good kind,” he chuckled, now sitting straight up in the bed.

“I don’t need. I never have. I have always been fine being alone. I’ve always known it’s how I’d live my life, I suppose - alone and happy. Now that I’ve met you - now that we have this - I can’t deny it’s meant to be. Kace, I’m scared to death to try and live without you,” he said.

I looked into his eyes and felt full of emotion. I felt full of pride. Full of love. I was about to cry, and I don’t like to cry.

“You’ll never be without me, Shane. Never,” I said as I rubbed his arm with my free hand.

“Never?” he asked.

“Never,” I responded.

He made a fist and held it over his chest.

I made a fist and tapped it against his clenched hand.

“You’re stuck now,” he said.

“How so?” I asked.

“We just shook on it,” he said.

And the way Shane’s mind works…

We just became one.

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