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Chapter Forty-One

Abigail

It was nearly ten o’clock on the day I was returning to the UK, and I hadn’t heard a word from Kye. Almost seventy-two hours since I had last seen him, and he hadn’t come to tell me that he wanted me and not the twins.

It had become obvious to me now that he didn’t have any feelings for me. That he was happy to just be a father to our children, but not a lover to me. I’d packed my bag and was just waiting for Mateus to come and pick me up. He had given me strict instructions that I wasn’t to carry my bag downstairs and I was to wait for him in my room.

As I sat there, I thought back to my conversation with Kye at the coffee shop. I had stopped him from telling me that he loved me. Had I done the wrong thing by giving him an ultimatum? Should I have just asked him to tell me he loved me and explain to me the reason behind him making me leave? I was starting to worry that now I had pushed him away instead of the other way around. The tears started to fall down my face as the realisation set in that I would be leaving here today without the man I loved. That there was a real chance that I had lost him forever.

There was a knock at the door, and I got up from my seat with the tears still pouring down my face. I opened the door to find Mateus standing there. When he saw the tears, he immediately pulled me into a hug. I had never felt so relieved to be comforted as I did right then. But it didn’t feel the same as when Kye held me all those times. I’d ruined everything, and I didn’t think there was anything I could do to make it right.

“It’s going to be okay, Abigail. We will get through this, I promise you.”

I tried to speak in between the sobs.

“I’ve…ruined…everything…Mateus. He…isn’t…going…to…come…to…even…say… goodbye. I’ve…lost…him…forever.”

All the way through, Mateus just kept hold of me, rubbing my back to try to give me some comfort. The only comfort I wanted, though, was Kye.

“I spoke to Kye this morning. I’m sure he will be here. If not, don’t give up on being together. He’s dealing with his issues, I promise you. You might just have to give him a bit more time.”

I wasn’t as hopeful as Mateus. I was sure that I had destroyed any chance I had.

“Come on, let’s get you checked out and on the way to the airport. He may decide to meet us there. I told him what time your flight was.”

Mateus let me go and grabbed my bag. We headed down to the reception, and Mateus kindly dealt with the staff, as I was in no fit state to speak to anybody. The tears were still pouring down my face, and I just wanted to get out of here and into his car so that no one could see me. Although, being pregnant, I could always use my hormones as an excuse. Mateus helped me out of the hotel and over to his car. He placed my bag in the boot and then opened the door, helping me to get in, then closed the door and walked around to the driver’s side.

This was it. I was leaving Madeira again without Kye in my life. I closed my eyes just as Mateus opened the door. I couldn’t look at him or anyone. I waited to hear him get into the car and close the door, but all I could hear was the sound of a truck pulling up next to us.

“Abigail, it’s Kye.”

I heard what Mateus was saying, but I daren’t open my eyes. I didn’t want to let him see me crying at the thought of never seeing him again. I also didn’t want to hope that he was here for me. That he wasn’t just here to say goodbye. I heard the door open next to me, but I couldn’t open my eyes. I lifted my hands to cover my face as my body shook with the sobs that I couldn’t stop. I felt his touch and instantly knew it was him. The spark that had always been there when he touched me hadn’t gone.

“Bonita, look at me, baby.”

I felt a wave of relief and sorrow flow through m as my sobbing continued. I couldn’t move as my body was shaking from the sadness and the tears that were falling. I felt him carefully pull my hands from my face, but still, I kept my eyes closed, not wanting to look at him. He’d come to meet me. There was still a chance between us. Or at least that was what I hoped.

“Bonita, look at me, please.”

Slowly and carefully, I opened my eyes, knowing that the brightness of the sun would blind me. I looked up into those gorgeous eyes and saw they were red with the tears that were also falling from his face. He smiled at me just before he pulled me into a hug. This was what it felt like to be comforted. This was what I needed as the tears continued to fall.

He just stayed there holding me. I could feel the warmth returning to my body. He might have said I was his light, but he was always my warmth, the other half of my soul. Without him, I wasn’t complete. I needed him in my life, whether it was for me or the twins. I didn’t care what his answer was. I just needed to be with him, forever. It was only then I realised that for the past five minutes, I hadn’t said a word.

Pulling away, I smiled up at him. “You came to see me. You didn’t let me leave without coming to say goodbye.”

“I was hoping to say more than just goodbye. Shit, I had this all planned out last night and then this morning, and seeing you here crying, everything I planned has gone from my head. Will you give me twenty-four hours to explain everything? Then you can make your decision.”

He kissed me tenderly on the forehead, and I melted. How could I ever have thought this man didn’t love me? That he would choose the twins over me? I gave him a small nod, and he got up from his position next to me and helped me out of the car. On the other side of the car, I could see Mateus standing there smiling at the pair of us, although it was clear a few tears had been shed. He was holding my bag, which I hadn’t realised he had taken out of the car. Kye made sure I was steady on my feet and went around to get my bag. He pulled Mateus into a hug and thanked him. He passed him an envelope, and at first I was confused, until he spoke.

“I need you to read that. Just know I wrote it the night Davi found me. The note itself doesn’t matter now, but what I said in it does. I need you to know what I have wanted to say to you for a long time, but could never say. If you think it will help, show the rest of the family, but if you think it will cause them too much pain, then don’t worry.”

Mateus nodded and then came around to me and gave me a hug. He whispered in my ear.

“Make him explain everything to you. You both need it. You need to hear what he has been through, and he needs to say it to heal.”

I pulled away and smiled, nodding my head. I gave him a quick kiss on the cheek as Kye came over and took my hand. Leading me over to his truck, he helped me up into it, and we headed off back to his house for what I hoped wouldn’t be the last time.

We had been back at Kye’s place for over an hour, and all we had done was sit here holding each other close. It was as though nothing had happened between us. That, or neither of us knew where to start, or didn’t want to. We had sat here in silence, not knowing how to strike up a conversation or what to say to each other. It was Kye that broke the silence first.

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