Page 37 of Gunner

She wants to run; I just know if she has the chance, then she'll be gone. That's why I convinced her to come to work back at the bar. I mentioned how much more she'd get from working in that dump café, and she agreed. Well, she nodded.

Like I said, she won't fucking talk to anyone.

I sigh and shut my computer off as my door opens and Flame walks in before taking a seat, scrubbing his hand over his face looking defeated.

"Still no sign of her brother?"

He shakes his head, and I furrow my brows, leaning forward. "Come on, Zayne, talk to me." He looks at me as I use his given name. I know there's more to the story as to why Star left the way she did.

He bites his bottom lip before rasping,

"I fucked up badly." I frown as he continues, "We were on a friend's date; Annie had lost the baby, and she needed a distraction from the pain her friend was going through." I nod so he knows I'm following, and he swallows hard, his eyes misting. "I could feel myself wanting to comfort her in the way a friend doesn't do; I could feel myself finally willing to let go of the fear of losing her in my life, and it scared the shit out of me, so when Ginger walked over to me, I got up, wrapped my arm around the sweet butt, and left Star with a devastated look on her face."

I sigh and shake my head. "Zayne,"

"It gets worse, Lucas."

He raps before I can say anything else, and I tilt my head. How can it get any worse than that?

"The night before she left me, left us, the club, and her family, she gave me her virginity. It was a goodbye and a fuck you tome," my brows shoot high. "Axel caught her before she ran off. She told him everything that happened the night I left her alone, making her think I was going to fuck Ginger when in reality I went home and slept." He takes a deep breath. "Me, Axel, and Dead Shot saw footage of Hairy, the Devil's VP, who also happened to be Killer's cousin, the guy that was trying to sell in our strip club that I burned alive… raping my girl."

My eyes widen, and I stand in shock while he drops his head. "But, you just said..."

I let it trail off as he looked at me, his eyes full of pain.

Fuck no, she was raped…anally.

I shake my head and grip my hair before he stands, gripping my shoulder. "I don't know if she'd ever forgive me, even if I did find her. I left her alone; I left the love of my life, my best fucking friend, alone because I couldn't handle my feelings to be-be…” He can't say it; he shakes his head. "Dagger knows as well, but no one else, not yet. It's up to Star if she wants people to know, but the reason why I'm telling you this is because if you called Star, left her a message, and explained the situation, she may be able to help you, brother."

I shake my head, not willing to use her, but Flame just squeezes my shoulder. "Do it, brother, because I feel like we're losing Leah bit by bit; she won't talk to anyone, and I have noticed her pulling away from Sophie even if Soph hasn't realized it yet. Clitter has pushed herself in between them, whether intentional or not. I don't know, but I am keeping an eye on her just in case.

We all failed her brother; Star may be the only one to help get through to her, knowing she had nearly enough of the same experience. Do it, brother, if not for you, for your unborn child."

I swallow and nod my head before he pats my back and leaves.

I take a seat and scrub my hand over my hair before grabbing my phone and spinning it in my hands. I never call Star; I text yes, but that's it. I think the last and only time I called her was when Flame got hit by a car when he was out on a ride.

Nodding my head, I get her contact number up and press call.

It rings five times, and when I think the voicemail will pick up, she fucking answers.

Shit.

"Gunner?"

She sounds panicked, and I swallow hard as my emotions take over.

"Starfish. I fucked up." I rasp as my tears start to fall, and I sniffle.

She sucks in a breath before she whispers, "What happened?"

I sniffle again. "Leah, she, fuck Star. We got it all wrong, so fucking wrong."

I can't stop the sob that comes out. I don't know how to fix things for us or how to get her to understand where I and the club were coming from, even though I was wrong. I need her to fucking forgive me.

"Lucas, tell me what happened with Leah."

I sniffled again. "Razor, he-he fuck, he lied Star; he and Leah were never an item; she never cheated on him; it was all a fucking ploy, so Cara got to keep me."

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