Page 38 of Always Yours

Bianca was threatening to leave, and Lily wasn’t sure I wanted her for more than sex, and those situations spell out ‘dad of every other week’ to me, and that just wouldn’t do.

I wanted to be there for it all. I just don’t see how I could make it work.

I want to see Lily swollen with my baby. I want to hold Bianca’s and my baby in my arms.

They are both going to be born a couple months apart.

There is enough in my savings, and I make enough through the club, so I at least won’t have to worry about taking care of them financially.

First thing I needed to do was find a house for me and Lily to live in and work on it until I am able to convince her that what we had was real.

There was so much to do, and it didn’t seem like I had a lot of time. Sure, it will be months before both babies are born; but that will fly by in no time.

I make a list of everything I need. I have given up on trying to sleep.

First thing in the morning, I need to call a realtor and then take Lily to her appointment.

Then I need to work on my plans to get my woman back.

I look up everything a baby needs, and I tab it to my laptop. I’ll get Lily and Bianca’s opinion on what they want tomorrow.

When morning comes, I’m exhausted but have a plan in place for everything.

Lily and Sasha are up making breakfast when I leave my room and head to the kitchen.

“Morning ladies,” I say lowly.

“Morning,” they both mutter.

“What time is your appointment?” I ask Lily.

“About two hours. After I eat, I’ll go get ready. Are you going to come?” she asks.

I nod my head, even though it guts me that she had to ask that in the first place.

“How was your sleep?” I ask her. She looks like she barely slept at all.

“It could have been better. Between Nick’s snoring and Sasha’s talking, I barely could sleep,” she chuckles.

“If you need to nap later, you are welcome to use my bed. After the appointment, I have some stuff I need to do,” I tell her.

“That would be great. I feel like I could sleep for hours right now,” she says with a soft laugh.

Some more brothers come into the room once the smell of breakfast takes over the club. Lily plates me up like she usually does, and that gives me some hope that she’s not completely rejecting the possibility of us building our relationship.

I don’t get to say much to her during breakfast. Once she leaves to go get ready, I head to my room to get ready too.

I take the club’s SUV to drive her to the appointment. I add another vehicle to my list of things I need to buy since I won’t be able to ride around with her on my motorcycle, especially since we will need room for a car seat soon.

She follows me out to the vehicle and climbs in before I can open the door or offer her help.

The drive is silent and I’m at a loss for words to say.

“How’s this going to work with Bianca having a baby too?” she asks quietly.

I let out a tired sigh. “I’m not sure, but I know I want to be there for both of you. I hope that by the time our baby comes, we can be living in our own place. I’d like to make a room for when my other baby comes over. Right now, I can’t trust Bianca not to take off on me or I would have gotten her a small house or an apartment already. She threatens to leave constantly. I don’t know what I would do if she took my baby with her.”

She looks over at me with a sad expression on her face. “Would she really take off?”

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