Page 37 of Always Yours

I look over at him with a sad expression on my face. “What makes you think this is more? I cook supper for the club and then we head to your room and fuck for the rest of the night. All we have is fucking sex. This isn’t a relationship. It’s not even close,” I say, and start to walk away.

“What we have is more than that and you know it,” he states, following me.

“How am I supposed to know that’s true? We barely even talk,” I say, turning to raise an eyebrow at him.

“Then let’s get to know each other without the sex,” he says, cringing at his own words.

“You think you could really not have sex for more than, what, eighteen hours?” I ask, looking over at him in shock.

“I’m not a horn dog. I can prove to you that we are more than sex. If that’s what it takes for you to see how serious I am about us, I would do it in a heartbeat,” he says pleading with me.

“I could see how that would prove it if we got to know each other without ripping eachother’s clothes off, but that doesn’t mean I forgive you for everything you said. You accused me of some pretty hurtful things,” I say before walking back into the clubhouse which is full of people.

“I know, I was an asshole. I reacted without thinking. I know you aren’t like that,” he says.

“There obviously can’t be any relationship if you don’t trust me. I mean what’s to stop me from jumping on Stone’s cock right as soon as you turn your back,” I ask, crossing my arms over my chest.

He lets out a big sigh. “You won’t jump on Stone’s cock. I know that, baby,” he says sounding tired.

“What’s wrong with my cock?” Stone shouts, causing me to twitch my lips.

“Yeah, what’s wrong with his cock?” I ask, grinning at Derek.

“Fuck. Nothing is wrong with his cock. I’m sure it’s perfectly fine. He could probably please any woman he wants,” he says before rubbing his hand over his face. “Fuck, I can’t believe those words just came out of my mouth.”

Everyone bursts out in laughter at his words. “That’s good to know you have a lot of faith in my skills, brother,” Stone says, smirking at Derek.

“This conversation took a surprising turn,” Derek mumbles.

I shrug. “Until I know you can trust me, I don’t see how this relationship will work.”

“And do you trust me? If a club girl came up to me?” he asks, crossing his arms.

I nod my head. “Well sure. You told me you wouldn’t be with anyone else, and you prove how much you want me every day, so I had no reason to doubt you.”

His shoulders drop in defeat. “I fucked up. I’ll prove it to you in any way I can.”

“Until that moment happens, I will be staying with Nick and Sasha,” I tell him.

When he looks into my eyes, he’s ready to protest but I think he can see how serious I am about this. If we are in bed together, the temptation to have sex is too easy to give into.

We’re going to have a baby and we need something between us that’s more than lust. Derek is trying to prove that we are forever but, in order to do that, we need to know more about each other than how to get each other off.

Hopefully I’m not wrong in wanting to give him another chance.

Derek “Razor”

I’m lying in bed later that night. I can’t help but toss and turn. I’ve already gotten used to Lily sleeping in my arms, but I fucked that all up.

Even though it fucking sucks, and I barely will get any sleep without her, I am determined to show her how much she means to me.

I don’t know how my life could become so fucked up in a matter of months.

Now I have gotten two women pregnant. One of them thinks I only want sex with her, and another believes that I want her to be my Old Lady when I don’t.

My life had gotten completely complicated in a matter of hours.

I want to have those babies now that I know about them. Late nights up with them and changing diapers wasn’t something I was sure I wanted, but I didn’t realise how excited I was to meet them and hold them until they were both closely in my grasp.

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