Page 145 of Madness Behind the Mask
She screamsagain. Blood runs down my cockas I fuck her. The knotting triggers, growing inside of her, stopping me from pulling out.
I slam in deep and close my eyes, trying not to look at the tear-stained face of my wife.
But instead I see her fucking Aleric behind my eyelids. She rides his cock and drags her nails all down his back as she screams,“I love you.”
“I love you, Aleric.”
“I love you.”
Screaming, I slam my fist into the wall beside her head. My knuckles break. The tiles crack. I slam my fist into it again until the bones are jagged peaks poking out of my skin. Then I grab both her hips, hammer in hard and fast a couple more times.
“I hate you,” I growl. “I hate you for what you did to our children. I hate you for leaving me. I hate you for fucking the man who took everything from us. I hate you, Sau Shadow.
“I. Hate.You!”
Digging my nails into her skin, I shove her away as I rip my cock free. The knot tears out of her ass, hurting me and hurting her. Blood runs down the two of us, but the agony in my heart wins out.
Nothing else can ever compare.
“I love you, Aleric. I love you.”
Stepping out of the shower, I leavemy wifebleeding ina ball underneath the spray.
And I don’t care.
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I cry for a long time as all my memories come crashing down on me at once. The names of my children. The love Caden used to have for me. The pain Aleric gave me over and over again. And I remember how I wanted to blood bond with my husband. How the worst thing in the world could be him hating me.
Yethere we are with him doing just that.
I want to curl into a ball and cry for days,but the door to the bathroom opens, ruining my sanctuary.
“Sau?”Myers comes in, but I can’t bring myself to lift my head, can’t pretend I’m okay when every part of me wishes I never left the Plane of Monsters. At least there, survival was onlyphysicalinstead of emotional.Atleast there, I forgot all the people who’d brought me pain, both in their actions and mine.
“Are you okay?” he asks, the question hesitant and notreally after an answer. He already knows it. It’s clear in the blood swirling around me. In the shaking of my body.
“He hates me,” Iwhisperas he turns the water off.
“No,” he says softlyas he lays a towel over me. “No, he doesn’t. He’s just going through a lot, Sau. But he loves you.He loves you more than anything in the world.”
Ishake my head, knowing he’s wrong. However Aleric managed it, he showed Caden what he did to me,and that severed all the love he had for me. “I thought it was him,” I say. “I really thought he’d come to take me home. Why didn’t he come for me?”
“He did, Sau. He worked alongside Aleric for decades to bring you back.”
Knowing that hurts even more. My husband suffered that vampire’s presence, suffered having to be the one who stayed behind, and the first thing I did on my return was hurt him. “I’m so sorry,” I say.
“I know.”
“But he doesn’t.” I close my eyes as I struggle to calm my breathing, my thoughts. “How do I fix this, Myers?” My breath hitches. “Aleric came in me twice. What if I’m pregnant with his –”
“It’s highly unlikely, Sau. There’s only been a handful of hybrids in existence.”
“But it could happen.” I look up at him, terrified that I could have a little Aleric growing in me soon. Terrified that I’ve lost Caden forever with that one act because I know I won’t be able to bring myself to get rid of it, to lose yet another child.
