Page 99 of Knot Their Reality

He doesn't answer me as he leans up to suck a nipple into his mouth, but he braces his legs and begins to pound into me from below. My orgasm is building, and while I know I can have multiple orgasms, I want to bite him—mark him as mine. But I want us both to come as I do. It'll be bliss for both of us, even if he can't mark me himself.

When Brody's fingers find my clit, there's no holding back as I scream out his name. My body shakes from head to toes, going taut and it's only Brody that keeps me upright as he pounds into me from below. Then he freezes, my name a whisper on his lips as he spills inside of me.

I roll my hips, my pussy still pulses as he fills me with his cum, and lean forward. Biting down hard on his pec, we both groan as we come again and the bond clicks into place.

When I finally collapse on top of him, we're both panting, and our bodies are slick with sweat, cum, and, well, slick. Sex with an omega is so messy, but I've yet to hear any complaints. I sigh as his hand runs through my hair. It won't take much for me to fall asleep.

"Can I be honest with you?" he asks me quietly.

I lift my head so I can look at him, frowning. "I would hope so."

He snorts. "I'm surprised that you chose to bond with me tonight. I'm super glad that you did, don't get me wrong, but I would've put money on you choosing Brooks. All of us have seen the way you look at him. Plus, he beat the hell out of Dylan for you. Again, I'm not complaining because this is the best night of my life, but... why?"

I wrinkle my nose. I should've known this would come up. Though, I never would've expected the conversation to come up with my newly bonded beta while his cock is still inside of me. I suck my bottom lip into my mouth as I consider what to tell him.

Of course I'd considered Brooks. He's everything I could want in an alpha. Not to mention, he and Chase are obviously into one another. While I'm holding out on choosing Pack Lewitt, I don't want the two of us to have two separate packs. I want us to have one. And thinking about this isn't something I wanted to dwell on.

"Sophia?"

I sigh and roll off of him, but he doesn't let me get very far as he wraps his arms around me. "I just didn't want to have this conversation with your cock inside of me. Did Brooks share anything with any of you about why I had to send Pack Duval home?"

"Not really. He said you'd been through something, but it wasn't his place to tell us your story."

I smile with a nod. Of course he didn't tell them. He didn't want to betray my trust.

Yet another plus in his column. But is it enough?

Shaking my head, I explain what happened to me all those years ago. It's not what I want to talk about after bonding with him, but he needs to know. Hell, Chase doesn't even know this yet. I'm going to have to have the same conversation with him. Great.

"I've slept with alphas since then—not a lot, but I have. Sex isn't a problem as long as they don't try to tie me up. Things changed when I met Asher, Liam, Carson, and Chase. For the first time in my life, I imagined a life with a pack. I barely knew them for what? A week? Half that time was spent in the nest while me and Chase rode out our heats.

"I overheard a conversation the morning after our heats broke, and I assumed they were talking about me. I now know they weren't, but at the time it was like my worst fears were coming true. I'd finally let two alphas in, and they didn't want me. I was heartbroken. So I ran before they could break me any further."

"I'm so damn sorry you've had to go through all of that," Brody whispers, brushing a kiss against my forehead.

I cuddle further into his arms, not wanting to look at him for this next part. "But you're wondering what that has to do with the question you asked me."

He hesitates, but I already know what his answer will be. "Yeah, I guess I am."

"As an omega, I'm meant to be drawn to alphas. I have a biological need to be knotted. There's nothing I can do to change that. If it weren't for the show, I'd probably have made a pack of betas who accepted that four times a year, I'd need to bring in alphas for my heats." I laugh without much humor.

"To me, betas are safe. They're meant to make sure the omegas are taken care of—that they're safe. Their very scents are calming. I know what to expect from my relationship with them. But with alphas? I'm terrified. Terrified that they'll break me, that I'll turn into a shell of myself. But I'm most afraid that they'll break my heart and I'll never feel whole again."

Brody pulls me closer as I fall apart in his arms, and not in the fun way this time. I can't seem to stop the hiccuping sobs that spill from my lips. Admitting this out loud is a huge deal as I'm not sure I've ever fully admitted it to myself.

I'm sure he has something to say about the truths I've just spilled, but he just holds me until my sobs finally fall away. Then he leans back just enough to meet my eyes. "Are you okay?"

"As okay as I can be," I say with a snort. "I mostly feel like I've been shoved into a blender with my emotions and left to be shaken up with them for days."

He hesitates. "We don't have to talk about this more if it's too upsetting."

The smile I give him is sad as I shake my head. "This is something you can't keep me safe from, beta. And it's something I need to face. If I continue to ignore it, I'm just asking to fuck this up royally. I need alphas in my pack. Hell, I want them in my pack... I just..."

"You don't know how to stop being afraid?"

I nod, tears filling my eyes once more. He sweeps away the ones that spill over with a sigh.

"Does Chase know all of this?" He frowns as I shake my head. "I think step number one is telling him. You can't keep things like this inside, and you don't want to keep secrets from your pack. The bonds are new and not as strong, but the more you add to the pack, the stronger they're going to get. We'll be able to tell when you're keeping something from us. I can guarantee that we don't want you to keep things like this from us."

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