Golden scoffs and let’s go of my hand, it drops to my side and just hangs there.
“Of course it’s him. That fucker.”
What?
“What?”
“Can’t you see what’s happening Evie? He’s trying to come between us, please don’t let him.”
I step away from him.
“Trying to come between us? What does that even mean?”
I ask struggling to keep my voice down, Holden however, has long lost that battle and is now screaming.
“He’s jealous of me! He’s been jealous of me his whole life! And now he’s trying to take you away from me too.”
Okay, there’s definitely some bigger issues there that I want no part of, but somehow I doubt Luca was the jealous one.
“Holden, this is my job, Luca isn’t trying to, take me away from you” I cringe at how ridiculous that even sounds and it seems to annoy him that I’m not taking his side.
“You don’t believe me? You’re taking his side?”
“Oh for fuck sake, what are we twelve? I’m no taking anybody’s side, this isn’t even a reasonable argument. Can we just drop this Holden? I have to get ready. Holden.”
I make to move again and Holden gets up.
“There’s something going on between you two isn’t there?” He asks, I would’ve laughed at how ridiculous this was, the two of us screaming at the tops of voice, naked as the day we were born, but there’s nothing funny about this.
“No there isn’t. And it’s insulting that you would even ask that.” I say and immediately feel guilty because I had been fantasizing about Luca for a while now, but I had squashed it every time, I’m not someone who cheats on the people she’s with what’s the point?.
“ is it though? Because Look at how you’re acting? Running off like a fucking minion the second he calls.”
“Because it’s my fucking job Holden, do you even know the meaning of the word assistant? He calls, I run. That is the literal definition of the word, it’s what I was hired and it is what I get paid to do. God you’re being so immature and unbelievable right now.”
“Did you sleep with him?” Holden asks, it’s as if I have been talking to a brick wall, like he hadn’t heard a word of what I’d said and I am rendered speechless for a while as I try to process what just came out of his mouth.
“What did you just say?”
“That day, at the night watch, before I came to pick you up, something happened right, I could see it in your eyes, I’m the way you looked at him, I knew he wanted to get in your pants but I didn’t know you did too, is that when it started or was it before then tell me. Did you let him fuck you?”
Something definitely would’ve happened that night, maybe not us having sex but we definitely would’ve kissed if Holden hadn’t shown up when he did, but it didn’t, we didn’t have sex, we didn’t even kissed, crap we barely touched and honestly he has no right to act this way.
“You’re an asshole, a big fucking asshole screw you!” I say and I grab my clothes and run into the bathroom, I dress up in a hurry and I hear his voice from the other side.
“I’m sorry, Evie, I didn’t mean any of that. Please, I just love you so much and I don’t want to lose you.”
Bullshit. This isn’t one of those movies where the girl gets played emotionally, I’m tougher than that.
I open the door when I’m done and he immediately runs towards me.
“Evelyn, I am so sorry. I don’t know what came over me.”
“I do, you’re a jealous, immature and insecure piece of shit and you need to get your act together or I’ll be done.”
I don’t wait for him to respond I slam the door shut and leave the house.
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