Page 27 of My Three Roommates

“You really believed you could just walk away and everything would go back to normal?”

“Yes,” I admit. “That’s what I thought.”

“And now?”

My heart quickens. I take a deep breath, trying to steady my nerves. It’s bad enough to have these thoughts constantly bouncing around in my head. Talking about it makes it worse.

Remembering the beer I brought out with me, I take a long drink. I still don't know quite how to put everything into words.

“All I can think about is the four of us. All the time. What we’ve done and what it means,” I begin.

“What did you come up with?”

"I might be wanting something more." A surge of panic comes over me. I don’t want to lose Kenna. I’d do anything to keep her. At the same time, I can’t deny what I’m feeling for Tanner.

And as much as it blows me away, Cody. Of all people.

“That makes sense,” Kenna says.

I turn around to look Kenna in the eye. How she can be so casual about something that’s twisting me up so much is beyond me. “It does?”

“Of course. I feel the same way. So do the others,” she continues as if she hasn’t just rocked my whole world. “We’ve been talking about it.”

“You have? About what exactly?”

“Well, you know Cody wants to keep things going with all of us. Tanner’s into it too. I feel closer than I ever have to you and both them. So why wouldn’t we?”

“So you guys got together and decided all of this? Without me?”

She pokes at my shoulder. “It wasn’t like that. The three of us were hanging out, and Cody brought up doing it again.”

I snort. “Like he does every day?”

“Exactly. Only this time, I pressed him on how he felt about all of us being in a real relationship together. I didn’t have to convince him. He’s into it.”

“Of course not. He’s been crushing on you for a long time,” I say. “Why would he pass up a chance to really be with you? Tanner would be a fool to turn you down too.”

“We didn’t just talk about that. He and Tanner are starting to feel it. It’s why they went out tonight, to get to know each other better. They’re into each other, it’s easy to see. I’ve caught the way they look at each other. Haven’t you?”

“No.”

“I had to pry it out of Cody, but even he admitted that he might like you a little more than before. Maybe he’s falling for you.”

I kiss Kenna’s cheek. “He is not.”

“Okay, he didn’t exactly put it that way, but he does like you and I know he’s going to end up falling for you too. Are you saying you don’t feel the same way about him? Or Tanner?”

I can't get either one of them out of my head. All I want to be able to do is wrap my arms around Tanner randomly like I do with Kenna.

As far as Cody goes, I’ve caught myself wanting to spend some time with him outside of the bedroom too.

I’ve got to be honest with Kenna, even if it’s the most difficult thing I’ve ever had to do. Somehow it’s even harder than telling her about my hidden attraction to men.

Then again, look how that turned out.

I swallow hard. “Maybe I do have more of an interest than just sex now. Would that bother you?”

“No,” she says simply. “Not a bit.”

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