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Donnie eyes me, then my phone. “What’s wrong with your phone?”

“Nothing’s wrong with it. I’m just getting a lot of notifications, that’s all.” I collapse onto the couch in the break room, extending my legs out in front of me.

“Notifications for what?”

“Ugh.” I slouch down far enough for my head to rest on the back cushion. I haven’t told any of the guys about my foray back into porn. I don’t think they’d have a problem with it, it’s just… I spent so many years distancing myself from that world and now I’m suddenly going back? I don’t know how to explain it to them in a way that doesn’t sound ridiculous.

Sebastian seemed to get it though. With minimal actual explanation too. It was a lot easier to tell him than I thought, honestly. But then, things with Sebastian always seem different than with anyone else. Smoother. Effortless.

Donnie sits at the table in the corner with his lunch. He takes a bite out of his wrap and sits back to chew while studying me from across the room. If I’m going to tell any of the guys at Mars, it’s going to be him. He’s the least likely to give me shit for it.

“I, uh, might’ve done a thing.”

Donnie takes another bite and waits for me to continue.

“A porn thing,” I say quietly.

His eyebrows shoot up and he leans forward. “A what thing?”

I can’t tell if he heard me and just wants to make my life difficult or if he really missed what I said. “A porn thing,” I say, a little louder.

“You’re doing porn again?” Sawyer pops out of freaking nowhere, leaning through the door with a look of glee on his face.

“Oh god.” I cover my face with my hands. Now the entire gym is going to know that I’ve come out of retirement.

“Is it with that Sebastian guy?” Sawyer plops down on the couch next to me.

“Don’t you have to watch the desk?” I glare at him.

He shrugs. “Gavin’s out there talking to someone right now. So, is it Sebastian?”

How the hell does Sawyer know about Sebastian? Oh right, because Sawyer knows everything about everyone who walks through the gym’s front door.

“Sebastian’s the guy I saw you with that time, right?” Donnie asks from the table. “Out on the sidewalk?”

“Yes, that’s Sebastian. And yes, it’s with Sebastian.” There’s no point in trying to evade their questions. A quick internet search will turn up the answers in about half a second.

“That’s so cool. Although, I don’t know if I really want to watch someone I know having sex.” Sawyer tilts his head like this is actually something worth pondering.

“Then don’t,” I say.

“Yeah, but like, I should support you, shouldn’t I? That’s what friends do.”

Donnie nods. “I definitely don’t want to watch you having sex, but yes, if there’s a way to support you without having to do that, let me know.”

They’re sweet. If wanting to support their porn star friend slash co-worker is considered sweet. And they haven’t asked the questions I’ve been dreading for days. Why are you coming out of retirement? Why did you retire in the first place?

Sawyer’s head snaps toward the door and he jumps to his feet with a muttered “Oh shit” before jetting out of the break room. Less than a minute later, Gavin walks in.

“What’s this I hear about you doing porn again?”

“That fucking Sawyer.” I sit up about to go chase the guy down.

“Sawyer?” Gavin asks, brows furrowed.

“He didn’t tell you?” I ask.

“No, it’s all over the internet.” Gavin holds up his phone to show me Sebastian’s OnlyFans page. The preview of our video shows the two of us with our tongues down each other’s throats.

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