Page 67 of Broken

"You see, Sinclair, I don't know what you think you saw, but you think I have a girlfriend that I don't have." His voice was husky, deep. He was right in front of me now. his bare chest against my terry cloth covered one.

Because my body had a mind of its own, and because it wasn't under my control, my hand reached up to run its fingers through the spatter of dark hair that covered his perfectly chiseled pecs.

"Kai." I sighed.

"How many times, and in how many ways do I have to say it? I fucking love you, Sinclair Grant, I always have, and I always will."

He nudged my ear with his nose, lightly kissing the tender spot behind my earlobe. "Sin, you are my heart, my soul. You're the very reason I breathe." I wanted to cry as he put his hand over mine, interlacing our fingers over his heart.

"But I saw her. The redhead. I came to the hotel, and you were with her." I felt the tears fall from my lashes as I told him everything that happened after he left the apartment. My heart ached; I was so confused. I was overwhelmed and needed my space, but I needed to be close to him. I needed Kai more than I thought I ever would.

"Millie? Oh, my dear Sin, I promise to explain, but first." With our hands still joined and at his heart, his other hand tangled in my hair, Kai kissed me.

The kiss started with the softest caress of his lips against mine. Every second I didn't stop him, and each moment I didn't say no, the kiss deepened. Kai inched closer to the point where no space existed between us, save our hands that were still linked together over his heart.

"Do you feel that Sin? Do you feel my heart? You are what keeps it beating. You are my everything."

I took a deep breath, breathing him in. His natural scent mingled with my shea butter and almond body wash, and all I felt was peace, with Kai. I didn't know how to respond. I didn't deserve his love. I was broken, ruined, and used up.

Small tears rolled down my cheeks as we stood there, frozen in time, Kais's admissions hanging in the air around us like a marquee with flashing lights.

"You told me you loved me, Sinclair. If you tell me no, right now, I'll leave. I walk out of your room, get dressed and we can continue to be friends and co-parent Aine. Nothing more."

He wiped a tear from my cheek with the pad of his thumb. "Or, my beautiful Sin, you can kiss me back, and we will find a way to be a

family, we will make everything work."

I wanted to say no, I was unloved, unwanted, and broken. A part of me wanted to run from the room and hide from Kai, from my feelings. But another part of me was loved, and needed, a part of me that needed Kai as much as he needed me. That part of me was stronger and braver and so she fought the broken part of me and won.

I pulled my hand from Kais and wrapped both of my arms around his neck and kissed him with everything I had. I poured all the love from him in all the years we had been friends into the kiss. I gave over every broken piece of me, every little part of my soul that had been beaten, raped, and abused. I surrendered my heart to Kai in this kiss.

Kai returned the kiss with love, light, and strength to chase away my darkness. He repaired the most shattered parts of me, as he lifted me and laid me on the bed, not once breaking our kiss.

There were no more towels between us, just his skin against mine. His heat warmed and filled the emptiness inside me as we made love.

Kai was slow and gentle as he caressed my pussy with his fingers, making sure I was wet and ready for him. The slick head of his rockhard cock pushed gently through my lips and deep inside.

I moaned against his mouth as his cock filled me. Lifting my hips to meet his, I bit his lip. Kai broke the kiss to look me in the eyes, and we just laid together for a moment. Not moving, not saying a word, we were one. One heart, one body, one soul.

Our bodies moved in unison as we kissed and caressed each other. I'd never made love before. It had always been purely animalistic sex, hard fucking meant to get me off as quickly and efficiently as possible. This was very different from fucking.

Every time he drew one nipple, then the next into his mouth, I understood what he meant when he called me his everything. Every moan and every nibble of my ear, he healed my broken spirit with his touch, his love.

"Kai." I breathed over his shoulder. I was so close to orgasm, a slow burn, building up first in my heart and then down further to my core, and out through my body. I never experienced a release like this one. It was cataclysmic, life, no world-changing.

As I rode my orgasm to finish, Kai slid his arms under my back and held me tight to him, and rolled over, so I was on top, looking down at him. "I love watching you cum." He whispered with a smile.

My wet hair lay flat down my back, small droplets of water leaving a trail from the ends of my hair to my ass. I tilted my head back, letting those damp ends brush against the soft skin. My moans and his breathing echoed off the walls of my room.

A low buzzing sound interrupted the cacophony of our making, and my vibrator was pressed against my clit before I saw it. I wondered how Kai knew where to find it but didn't care enough to ask. That was a question for another time.

"Oh Fuck." I moaned out as the little thing buzzed gently against my bundle of nerves. I rode his dick harder and faster, in motion with the pulsing of the sex toy he kept flush against me.

It didn't take long for me to reach an orgasm for a second time. This time, Kai came too. He dropped the vibrator against his stomach, and I picked it up and held it with one hand as I rode him through our joined climax.

His cock pumped inside me when I dropped the vibrator on the bed next to him. I was out of breath and felt like I floated in the air. "Sinclair" Kai moaned out my name. I looked down at him, all the love I had to give in my eyes. All the years he was there for me, my best friend, all the times he saved me from myself. I gave it all to him at this moment.

"Say it, baby. Please" At first, I wasn't sure what he meant. Did he need me to say some cheesy ass dirty name or something for him to finish? That didn't sound like Kai.

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