Page 18 of Broken

Kai had his hand on my shoulder, turning me to face him, I wanted to scream. His moods were giving me whiplash. I couldn't tell up from down. None of this should be happening.

"We have unfinished business, Sinclair."

Before I couldn't say anything, Kai had me in his arms. His mouth covered mine in a kiss so deep, so hot. It traveled from my lips to my navel. From there, a fire ignited between my thighs and spread down my legs into my toes.

This was the release I needed. I needed to know that darkness and poison didn't consume me. But it was a lie. A lie my slutty vagina wanted to ignore.

I deepened the kiss, moaning into Kai's mouth, needing him to want me as much as I wanted him at this moment. I put my hands against his chest as his tongue pushed past the barrier of my lips and into my mouth, tangling with my own.

I pushed my tits into his chest as I pulled myself as closer to him. I needed the warmth of his body as much as I needed air to breathe. It was this moment right here; I knew why I came home.

I needed to know. I needed to know if all the bathroom hookups in the bars and all the one-night stands were because I was chasing after the ghost of something that could have been. Was I chasing after the past I wish I had instead of running from the one I did have?

I slid my hands between us, grasping at the fabric of his white cotton tee. I needed to feel him, his skin, the rhythm of his heartbeat against my palm.

Kai nipped at my bottom lip and shook his head. "Nuh-uh." He said into my mouth as he took my hands and moved them away.

I was upset by the shift, but it didn't last long. Before I had a second to respond, Kai turned us, so my back pushed against the bedroom door, and he used our combined weight to close it, my back never once leaving the surface of the wood.

I fucking needed him, I needed him inside me, on top of me, all over me.

"Please." I all but begged him. I was afraid of what my body would do if he stopped at this point. If he decided he had his fun and was ready to leave me, I deserved punishment worse than that.

But Kai didn't stop. He didn't decide to leave me hanging, hurting, and wanting more from him. He didn't leave me broken and crying and alone. With each moment we kissed, each stroke of his tongue against mine, I was whole. I was full and alive. It was as if for the time we were together, all the darkness vanished, the demons and ghosts frightened off by his light.

"Sin, I've missed you so much." As he spoke, his lips never left mine. His words reverberated in my head. I didn't want to say no to him, every single cell in my body screamed yes. My body begged for him to touch me more, kiss me more, begging to be filled by him in every way possible.

My soul needed him as much as my body did.

In response, I lifted my arms above my head, taking my shirt with them. Our lips broke apart with a deafening pop as I pulled my top over my head, watching him as he did the same, his eyes never leaving mine.

I was going to hell for this. I knew that without question. This was the best and worst idea I had in my entire adult life. But I was all in.

Out of the silence, my phone started to go off. I pushed Kai away and fumbled through my pockets to find my phone. Answering it as I walked out of the room.

"Hello?"

"Hey, momma." Aines voice came through the speaker, bringing the universe to a halt. "I just wanted to tell you good night. Dani and I spent the day at the pool, and she let Riley come over to swim too."

I laughed because only Aine had the ability to get all that out in one breath. I was more than thankful that, even at eleven years old, my daughter still called me mamma.

"That's great baby. I'm glad." I told her. I didn't bother to give Kai a second glance as I walked out of the bedroom.

I listened as she told me about her day swimming and how they barbequed hot dogs with one of the neighbors at the pool.

I needed air. I needed to clear my head, so my daughter didn't sense how stressed I was. I didn't want Kai to know my daughter called me.

I went looking for the things I needed to clean up my mess while Aine told me she missed me but was having fun.

I told her about the picture I saved from my old room, not bothering to mention that I didn't put it there. She was too excited at the idea of having something from my childhood. That thought hurt in so many ways.

We shared a couple of 'I love Yous' and hung up with the promise that I would call her in the morning. When I went back to the bedroom with the broom, dustpan, and trash can, Kai left me.

He remembered to close the front door and lock it behind him.

eleven

Kai

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