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"I enjoyed tonight." Allie sighs, standing next to the front door as I shut it.

"You’re going to enjoy it more, soon," I whisper a promise before picking her up over my shoulder and carrying her to my bedroom.

"Put me down, caveman." She moans as I slap her ass.

"Sure," I say, throwing her onto the bed, and she looks up at me with a big grin.

"I–" she goes to say, but my phone rings.

"I will leave it," I say, going to take my shirt off.

"No, you should get it."

I sigh before pulling out my phone, not even looking at it as I answer.

"Hey, Elliot; it’s me, Lily. I have a box of your things you left at mine to return. Can I see you tomorrow? At the same cafe we met at?"she asks straight away. I don’t really remember leaving much stuff, but I don’t want whatever it is anyway.

"I don't think that's a good idea. Lily, I have to go," I say while Allie watches me with a dark face as she sits up on the bed. I end the call as Allie moves to stand in front of me with her arms crossed.

"Why is Lily calling you? Why is she calling you at nine at night?" she asks, looking pissed off.

"She wanted to return something. I don't know what it is, nor do I care. We talked the other day, and I thought we sorted things out. She didn’t mention anything then," I say the last part more to myself, and Allie looks even more pissed, which I don't understand.

"Why didn't you tell me you've been seeing her?" Allie says, and she doesn’t wait for my answer as she says, “I saw her, too, and I told you she had been a bitch. She told me she had every intention of going after you again, and now you’ve been meeting up with her?”

"It was only once, and I don't think I have to tell you everywhere I go, Allie. Lily is just messed up, mainly by me, but she isn't a bitch," I say, defending her. I'm not sure why, but it's too late once I've said it.

"‘It was always her, she said that. She said you would go back to her once you got me out your system, but I honestly believed you cared. Was this all to get back at my father? Fuck his daughter and break her heart?” she asks. “I have to go," she says, walking out of the bedroom with me following.

"Allie, it was never like that between us. I love you," I say.

"If you loved me, you would have chosen me. You didn't, and I can't believe I let you get close to me."

"I was an idiot back then. Allie, you know how sorry I am about then, but I do love you. The question is: if you love me too," I say, and she stops in the empty doorway.

She turns to me, breaking my heart when I see the tears."I always did! I always loved you, but you ruined what we could have had. I hate Lily because she had you for years, and I had to watch. I finally thought I had you, and, no, she is still around," Allie shouts before looking down at the ground.

"It's a risk seeing you. A game I can’t play with you, not if you are still talking to her. Still defending her."

"What are you saying?" I ask with my heart pounding against my chest.

"Goodbye, Elliot," she whispers before shutting the door behind her, and I slam my fist through the wall behind me.

"Fuck," I shout, sliding my ass down to the floor as my blood drips from my hand in front of me.

I have to fix this, but I have no idea how. Allie’s hurt, and her haunted face will destroy me if I don't make this better.

Chapter 24

Allie

"Oh god." I moan. My head spins as I sit up in my bed.The room blurs for a second before I wipe my eyes. My hands come away a little black. I must have gone to sleep with my make-up on, too.

"God isn't going to help you or me," a voice mutters next to me, making me almost jump out of my skin before I see Izzy’s face in my bed.

"Izzy, what happened last night?"I ask her.

"Wait, I need the loo. I will be right back," she says, hopping out of bed to use my bathroom.

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