Page 58 of Crazy in Love

Is she right? Is loving her not enough to prove I’m here for her? Does she really think I’m going to run away because of her sister?

“Dinner tonight, me, you, and your sister. If it helps, Anika and Jason can be there too. Come to my place, Lee’s with me there-”

“I don’t think-”

“I do. Saylor, I’m all in. I can’t lose you again. One day at a time.” I place my hand on her stomach and look into her eyes. “Are you happy about this? Because I am, but I want you to be happy. I want to see you smile again. I want you to feel so loved that the only thing you think about is how happy your life is.” I give her a kiss and lean my forehead on hers.

“Honestly, I don’t know how I feel about this.” I’ve never heard her voice so broken, lost. But I’m going to make it right. I’m going to love her every day, show her I’m never leaving her again.

“Dinner?” I ask again.

“We will be there, but no seafood, and can you change the vanilla soap in the kitchen please?” She scrunches up her face, and I start laughing. Looks like I’m going to have to make a few changes to things. “One smell of that, and I will be throwing up all day.”

“It will be gone, anything else? I don’t want to ruin the night.” I smile, wanting her to feel like it’s her home, and not just mine.

“There are a few things, but vanilla is the worst. I will see you tonight, and I’m going to apologize for anything my sister says tonight-”

“Saylor, no you don’t. Don’t worry about it, it will be a good evening.” Leaning down to give her another kiss, I whisper against her lips, “Never letting you leave again.”

“Get back to work, I will see you tonight,” Saylor tells me, then pulls away to get up. “I’ve missed you.”

“You have no idea how much I’ve missed you.” She stops by the door and turns to face me with a smile. “We’re going to be together until we're old.” I stop when Saylor starts laughing.

“You, me, until I’m old… you’re already there.” She laughs leaving my office.

* * *

Lee and Zhi helped me make dinner, because my head has been all over the place. The second I walked through the door, Lee was the one I spoke too. I needed to tell him about Saylor being pregnant, but I don’t even know if I was happy or not.

I’ve never thought about getting married, or having kids. I know I love Saylor, because God, this time apart from her has killed me, but that doesn’t mean I thought about having kids with her.

He told me, and I have to agree with him. Saylor, at the moment, doesn’t know what she wants to do, so how about I focus on winning her back, then let her figure out what she wants and go from there.

Maybe she doesn’t want the baby either, and my decision is made for me. Maybe she does, and I have to just live with the decision or lose her all over again. Then the crazy part is, maybe I will change my mind, and want a kid, and will have to talk her into keeping it.

I shouldn’t be worrying about any of this right now. I need to prove to her I can live with her sister, and that nothing will change between us.

I love Saylor, I know that. I know I can’t spend another day without her.

“Dinner is ready, and the table is set, so now we just have to wait for them to come,” Lee tells me, and I look at my watch. They should be here by now.

“I hope she’s not changed her mind.” I look at Lee smiling at me.

“You are crazy about her. No matter what she wants to do with the baby, you can’t leave her.” He wraps his arm over Zhi, and I go to reply but stop when the doorbell goes off.

Rushing over to the door, I smile at Anika and Jason, and look behind them at Saylor and her sister talking.

“They will be a minute. It’s an argument that isn’t going too well,” Jason tells me, then looks over his shoulder at them both, and I tell them to come in. I wait by the door for Saylor and her sister to finish.

“You are crazy,” her sister shouts at Saylor, then walks past me into the house, and Saylor just stands there shaking her head.

I walk over to her and pull her in for a hug, kissing the top of her head.

“Evening, beautiful,” I say into her hair, and relax once I feel her arms around me. I’m so happy to have her here, I don’t care what I have to do to keep her now.

“Are you sure about this?” She pulls away and looks up at me.

“Never been more sure about anything. Who am I dealing with?” I ask, and Saylor lets out a laugh.

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