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“Whatever it is, Lord is keeping it close to him. Because I have tried to find out, been one nosey bitch at times but nothing. It’s his loss, Sophia. And now that you’re back, I am making it my mission to find you a good man,” Lettie said, pulling me into a hug.

“Trust me; I want nothing more than to get over Rowen, and seeing he was with that same woman from that night hurt. It’s been three years; he must care about her,” I said quietly.

Lettie snickered. “Oh, dear Sophia, I didn’t realize it was that bitch Jen who you caught in his bed. He isn’t with her. Jen is one of the club freebies and crawled on his lap right before you came in the door.”

“But he is still sleeping with her, club girl or not, or she wouldn’t be crawling on his lap.”

“That I don’t know. I haven’t personally witnessed it, so I can’t say. But, it doesn’t matter; there are plenty of sexy men in the sea, and I am finding you one. You’re beautiful, Sophia, and I won’t let you waste another day being alone.”

“He said he didn’t know I was pregnant; he was furious. But, Rowen does want to be a part of Roe’s life. I am happy about that, but it also means I have to get used to seeing him regularly for Roe,” I said, watching Lettie’s eyes widen in surprise.

“I’m happy for Rowena and even happier for you because that bastard will have a front-row seat to watch you find another man, and Sophia, it will be one hell of a show,” Lettie grinned, the gears in her head already working.

“Don’t get carried away, Lettie. I know you, and you’ll have men lined up at my door,” I chuckled. “I need to get inside and get Roe settled. With these new surroundings, she will take a while to fall asleep,” I said as I stood stretching my legs, tired from the travel and confrontation with Rowen.

Lettie stood, throwing her arms around me. “Come on, girl; I will help get you settled,” she said as we walked back inside. It did feel good to be back, with the exception of Rowen. I had missed home.

I ROLLED BACKinto the clubhouse a little after midnight. My mind was still a mess; seeing Sophia again and knowing I had a child with her, I still couldn’t wrap my head around it, and the thought of seeing her on a regular basis, I don’t know how I would handle it, being so close to her but not having Sophia. I still remember the first night I met Sophia. I had just gotten back from a run down in Florida. I was tired, cranky, and just wanted to hit my bed. I walked into the clubhouse and ran into someone. It was on the tip of my tongue to snarl, “Watch where you’re going.” But then I looked at what I held in my arms.

The most beautiful woman I had ever seen. It was love at first sight. Cliché, I know, but it’s true. And then she spoke, “I am so sorry, I didn’t see you.” And I saw the sparkle in her blue eyes; everything about this woman was vibrant. I also saw her interest in me, and I jumped on it, inviting her to have a drink with me, which she accepted. I saw her almost every day for three months after that night; I was hooked, I loved everything about Sophia, and I had no plans to let her go. I had even bought a ring, determined to make her mine permanently.

And I thought she felt the same way.

I was so wrong.

I had planned on seeing her that evening when I received the video on my phone of my Sophia with another man, recorded the night before, the night she said she had something to do and couldn’t meet me. I lost my fucking mind that night. I got so drunk and wanted Sophia to hurt as much as I was hurting, so I had Jen in my bed, knowing she would walk in, and she did. I should have felt satisfaction at the hurt on her face, but I didn’t; it only made things worse, and I drank until I passed out because if I didn’t, I would go after her.

I hadn’t seen or talked to her for three years until tonight. But, no matter how much I want her, I won’t give in. Whenever the need for Sophia got too much, I would watch the video I saved on my phone to remind me of her betrayal. I watched that video thousands of times.

Starting tomorrow, I will get to know my daughter and try to make up for not being there for Rowena for the first years of her life. Shit, I would have to let mom and dad know, they would be thrilled, and since they only lived an hour away, they would make a trip to see Rowena as soon as I told them about her.

I climbed into bed, knowing I wouldn’t sleep, Sophia was only a few doors away, and it was like I could feel her, fuck, I would have to wear myself out every damn night so that I wouldn’t go to her. So I brought my phone out and pulled the video up. I would lay here until time for Church in the morning.

CHAPTER TWO

JUST AS Ithought, I didn’t sleep, and it would be a long day. I had showered and dressed, and I would grab something to eat after Church. I stepped out into the hallway, stopping. Sophia had just exited her room and was heading away from me. She was holding Rowena, who was looking back at me. It was life-changing seeing your own eyes staring back at you. A life you help create, and when Roe smiled at me, I knew I would do anything to keep her safe and happy.

I waited until Sophia took the corner before following; I needed to get to the meeting. After that, I would deal with how we would do visits. Having reached the room we have Church in, I went in and took a seat; other members followed until we were only waiting on Fuse, who stumbled in minutes later, looking like shit.

“Rough night?” Viking asked Fuse as he took his seat.

“Who knew a baby that small could eat and shit so much? I am going back to bed when we’re done here. Better get prepared, Shadow; you’re next.” Fuse warned.

Shadow smiled. “I’m looking forward to it. Since everyone is here, let’s start. By now, you know Tildie was moved here. She still has weeks of recovery, but Doc says she should heal fine, at least physically,” Shadow said. We all knew Tildie would have mental trauma to work through.

“Have you heard anything from Cross? Is he looking for Tildie?” Vampire asked. Vampire was itching to capture Cross for taking Nikki.

“It’s like he appears and then ghosts for months. He is leaving the state and hiding, that is for sure,” Shadow replied. “Once Tildie feels better, we will ask her some questions, but I don’t want to push her for now.”

“What about this guy, Mouth, the one that sexually abused Tildie?” Stonewall asked, his eyes hard.

“Gone just like Cross; my guess is they are together. But, I have no doubt they will come for Tildie, and we’ll be ready,” Shadow smirked.

“Since Reader is taking care of Tildie, I could use Domino at The Unlimited. Soldier and I are stretched thin,” Viking said.

“I’ll do it, and Domino can help at Scarlett. Since I now have a daughter, The Unlimited works better for me,” I said.

“What you mean you have a daughter? Since when?” Fuse asked, confused.

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