Page 64 of The Forbidden Alpha

My irritating wolf appeared again. I just rolled my eyes and continued what I was doing. I put all my focus on the task at hand because I couldn’t go to the field to train, not after what Lucas did in front of them. I didn’t want any questions, and hell, I was so fucking embarrassed!

Ugh. I groaned and just shook my head.

When I was done with all the preparations in the kitchen, I realized that I had more time to rest. But I couldn’t seem to spend my vacant hours without doing anything, so in the end, I decided to face my fears and joined the warrior in training. Unfortunately, all their eyes darted toward me the moment I walked into the field. What’s worse was that Alpha Lucas was there, too!

And it was not helping that he was watching my every move. Damn. Every time our eyes met, my heart would start pounding so fast that I could almost feel it getting out of my chest. And it wasn’t even helping that my wolf teased me at every opportunity.

Damn it. This is not good.

These feelings that I have are not freaking good. I let out a huge sigh before focusing my attention on the training.

***

I was still so confused about my feelings toward Lucas. All I know is that I used to always cower in his presence; I used to feel scared when I was around him. I would get so anxious that my heart would beat so loudly.

Now, my heart would still pound violently whenever he’s around. But it’s not the same reason as before. It’s no longer because I’m scared of him.

I realized that the emotions he could elicit from me had transformed into something more complicated than simple fear or intimidation. The way my heart would summersault whenever he was near, or whenever I would feel an electrifying sensation every time we touched—those are not the things you feel just because you’re scared.

This is something different… something deeper. And I am afraid to even discover what this means. This is bad.

I shook my head harshly and focused on the food we were preparing. It was his lunch, and he wanted a special dish this time, so we needed to double time to cook what he requested. I bit my lip as I glanced from the kitchen's open door. From here, I could see the dining area where Alpha Lucas was sitting with Beta Darius and Leila.

I narrowed my eyes and stared at them for a while. They seemed serious. Could they be planning on an attack or a defensive stint? I don’t know. I mean, it’s been weeks since a rogue attack, and, oddly, it was so peaceful. But Alpha Lucas was just so strict about training. That’s why we still train every day, and he also made sure that he was monitoring us very well.

This is also why I was freaking distracted because he’s always around us. I let out a big sigh and shook my head. I moved faster and urged the others to do the same as well. A few minutes later, we had already served the food. Alpha Lucas was still with Darius, and they seemed to be still in the meeting the whole lunch. We were just by the side, waiting for them while some of the omegas were the ones serving. I kept my head down so I won’t meet Lucas’ eyes, but I could still feel his stares at me. Damn. What is happening with me?!

‘You don’t know?’

I bit my lip and shut my eyes tightly. Yeah, right, Cinna. Fuck.

***

It was already the middle of the night, yet I still couldn’t sleep. I kept staring at the ceiling while thinking about myself and my feelings toward Lucas. Hell, I still cannot believe this. I sighed and closed my eyes again.

‘Why can’t you just admit it, huh?’

“Admit to what? Tsk.”

‘you know exactly what I’m talking about.’

I groaned. And here I thought I’d get something from Cinna. Tsk. What do I expect? I immediately sat down on the bed. I looked at the window of my room. It was dark, but the moon was shining brightly again. I sighed and went out of bed so I could open the window. The cold and fresh air immediately brushed my whole body.

I leaned on the window. It was the one facing the garden, so I could see the empty garden and two of the pack warriors who were just a few meters away from where I was. I guess they were the ones assigned for this post tonight. I pressed my lips together and just stared at the flowers. I was in that position until I saw the warriors going near me. I had to hide so they wouldn't see me.

“Weirdly, Crest Moon isn’t making a move, huh,” I heard one of them say.

The other one then just shook his head. “Maybe they are planning on something big.”

“Huh, bigger than the ambush?”

I was stunned. The ambush… what? I immediately looked in their direction, and I saw the guy who mentioned the ambush sigh.

“I hope this is not about that, though. I mean, that was just so brutal, man. I didn’t even know they were capable of doing that. Damn.”

My forehead creased, and my brows furrowed. For some reason, my heartbeat went so fast. I don’t know why I felt so anxious. I stared at them for a while. They looked at each other as if they were gauging what to say next. I didn’t remove my eyes from them.

Come on, come on, what’s with the ambush? What is it? I was already itching to get out of my room and just go to them so I could ask it myself. Curiosity was killing me here! Spill it already!

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