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“No. You said anything and I want to know,” she says seriously.

“Fine. Yes I would like to sleep with him. Happy now?”

“Actually, it does make me feel a little better like I won’t have to be the center of attention all the time and you guys could love each other too,” she replies, her tone even, as if the thought doesn’t bother her at all.

I, on the other hand, feel a little uncomfortable. Yes, Bellamy is attractive, all her wolf mates are but it seems odd to say I want to sleep with any of them before she’s even mated to them. There are much bigger concerns than whether or not her wolves and I have sex in the future. I don’t want to lose sight of the most important thing, our nugget. For now I’ll let it go though because for whatever reason Jade seems happy about it.

“We are here!” Vikrim announces with his usual flourish before pulling the car into the parking lot of the pack house. Dell and Alec know that we are coming and maybe that’s why there isn’t any security out here but the wolves have no idea. We thought it was better to just show up and not have a chance of them saying no. By we I mean my kitten, because I had no doubt in my mind that if these guys are smart they’d welcome her in with open arms and hearts.

Guess we are about to see.

Chapter Twelve

JADE

My palm is sweating when I place my hand in Dar’s, but he doesn’t seem to care, just holds it tight and anchors me. Sending love and calm down our bond to help soothe me. This man is a damn saint. I don’t deserve him but I’ll never let him go. The fact that he’s encouraging me to take these other mates proves how good he is. Even if the idea of seeing them again scares me.

I didn’t do anything wrong by running away. I was scared, we’d just escaped from the Black Coven. Of course I was overwhelmed and confused, anyone would be. But it’s not an excuse for hurting them, especially Silas. After all we went through together and how he took care of me through the heat. He was so sweet and he kept treating me like a queen even though I kept denying our bond. I’d be surprised if he’s even willing to speak to me, let alone be happy about the news of our baby.

Our baby. God, I’m going to be a mom.

With the way ‘our little nugget’, as Dar would say; is growing, it’s going to be way sooner than any of us could have imagined. Not that I think anyone could have imagined this would happen. Or that we’d all somehow find each other in this big ol’ world. It’s a complete and total mess but in a way I guess it’s a miracle. Cougars don’t have the sixth sense like wolves and other animals about who our mate is. In a way it's great because the universe doesn’t force a mate on us, but I also wonder what it would be like to be one hundred percent sure that person is meant to be yours.

A small tug on my hand has me realizing that I’ve been staring into space in front of the pack house. Glancing over at Darius I give him a small nod before slowly putting one foot in front of the other. My heart beats faster and my hands shake, my nervousness getting the better of me.

When we reach the front door, we don’t even get a chance to knock before it’s open and Dell is standing before us. My breath wooshes out of me seeing it’s her and not one of the guys.

“I texted Delphina to let her know that we’re here because I thought her presence might ease you a bit, kitten,” Darius explains.

Just another reason to love this man, he reads me like a book. Anticipates my needs before I even know I have them. Now he’s stuck with me for life and my needy ass wouldn’t have it any other way.

“They’re in the office, I told them I had to make a call,” Dell says with a shrug. A little white lie never hurt anyone right? At this point I don’t even care, I’m struggling not to turn around and bolt without a word. I won’t though because I know that both me and my child need these wolves, I just have to face them and hope that they will forgive me.

“Let’s get this over with,” I say with a sigh.

“Come one Ana, it won’t be as bad as you think just wait and see,” Dell comments, giving the hand Darius isn’t holding a squeeze.

It’s strange to hear someone use my birth name after so many years of going by something different. Jade, though it was picked by the strip club, feels right. I’m not the scared little Ana running for her life anymore. I’m strong like Jade and I’m confident, or at least I was before getting kidnapped. I need to get back some of what was taken from me and I think that starts with the wolves.

When we approach the office I straighten my shoulders and hold my head high. Yes, I want them to forgive me, but I won’t cower or crawl for it. If they don’t want me then I’ll still be okay and so will my nugget. Darius will never let anything happen to us.

Dell walks in first, and I hear murmuring voices but no one seems upset, as soon as the room goes quiet though I know I’ve been spotted.

“Amigos! Long time no see, yeah?” Vikrim says coming into the room like he’s walking down the red carpet. I don’t know him very well but for this I love him.

The three wolves are frozen staring at me and I’m not sure they’re even breathing. Silas looks like he wants to run over and pull me into a hug but is holding himself back. The pain I feel down the bond from him almost takes my breath away.

“I’m sorry,” I whisper, as I feel my eyes fill with tears.

“Oh little mate you have nothing to be sorry for,” Silas replies, breaking the silence, but still holding himself back on the couch where he sits with Bellamy and Jace.

“No, I hurt you because I was scared and I didn’t understand the whole mate thing, and I’m really sorry,” I say as the tears I’ve been trying to hold back silently make tracks down my cheeks.

“And you two, I’m sorry if for a minute I made you feel unwanted, I just didn’t understand until Darius and I mated, that it’s very real,” I say looking at the other two men. Bellamy looks like he wants to cry with me but Jace has a very blank expression that makes me feel unsure about where he stands.

“Mila gave me up didn’t she?” he replies, all but ignoring my apology.

“Folded like a cheap lawn chair, as you Americans would say,” Vikrim comments, even though he wasn’t even there for that conversation, Darius must have told him. Those two are closer than I even knew. I wonder why Darius hasn’t talked about him until now though.

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