Page 96 of Sins or Secrets
“I can see some things never changed,” shestates.
“What do you mean?” I ask.
“That boy was always at the studio hanging around watching you.Looks like he’s still watching overyou.”
“He is. He was one sacrifice I had to makethough.”
Worry fills her eyes, and the sparkfades.“Tell me what happened.”
I do. I tell her all that happened to me, making her the third person I’ve told over the last few days.Every time I’ve told my story it’s felt like a release on mysoul.It’s strange I’ve been quiet for so long thinking that was what I needed to do to get by, but talking about my demons has freedthem.
Heather looks visibly saddened by the time I’mfinished.I know what she must feel like after all the sacrifices she made I didn’t have the life she thought I was going tohave.
“Quinn,” she begins. “I can’t believe you went through allthat.I wish I could have been there foryou.”
“I know. It’s okay. We’re herenow.”
“Yes, we are but it’s not like the problem issolved.”
“The last ten years left me with a bad taste in my mouth I can’tshake.I’m hoping that when I get to New York things might bebetter.I hope I find what I want when I get there and it’s my newbeginning.”
“I hope so too. You deserveit.I got my fresh start when I married Dennis, but I was still solost.I met him when my mother and I moved out to WestVirginia.We got married soon after we met and started ourlives.When the boys came I realized that I could have happiness and afamily.Not everything had to be so dark anddreary.”
“I hope I can have that oneday.”
“Well, I might be overstepping the line but it looks to me like Logan still takes a shine to you, and you look the same forhim.I don’t know how that fits in with New York for you, and I might be a little too late to play the mother, but things like that meansomething.They’re special. Okay?” she nods and I do too, appreciating her words, even though what I feel for Logan still feels like something I’m scared toembrace.
I’m not sure anyone could understandthat.
Heartbreak the way I experienced it is something that can’t really be explained withwords.You have to feel it and I don’t know if anyone could truly understand what I went through unless they went through itthemselves.I was bullied and threatened into letting himgo.
People say time canheal.
I’m still waiting for it to heal me.
Logan
We got back late, but today was by far one of the best days I’d had in quite a long time.
It was nice watching Quinn with Heather.
Nicer too that they planned to see each other again soon.I could barely keep up with the plans they were making, and suddenly the idea was born to have a party for the opening of the summer school.
I don’t know how I get dragged into these things, but I agreed.Of course, I would. Have I said no to Quinn Cambray yet?
Nope.
And even though I’m here tagging along, knowing how this will end for me, I’ll still play the bitch and do what I think I’m supposed to do to make her happy.
Quinn fell asleep not too long ago and I found myself looking at her while I drove.
Since there’s no way I could forget what we got up to in this truck days ago, I couldn’t stop the images from playing over and over again in my mind.
We had sex in this truck back at the club, and then when we parked in my drive.I couldn’t even wait the few minutes it would take to get her through the door and into my bed.
I don’t know how I’m supposed to disconnect, but I have to.It’s best to.
She stirs when we near the house and looks up at me and smiles as she opens her eyes.
