Page 103 of Blossoms of the Heart
Chapter 21
Phoebe
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“Oh my God I can’t believe you did that.” Mitsuke shrieked laughing so hard her skin turned red.
I couldn’t believe I told her what happened with Tai.
It kind of made up for not telling her what happened between Tai and I all those years ago, and still holding my silence on it.
When the time was right I’d tell her. Apart from the pain I went through I didn’t want the added embarrassment of how mom behaved. I found it hard to physically tell Mitsuke how my mother treated Tai.
But this, tonight was juicy and so completely unlike me. Me the sweet girl next door type giving Tai a good tease.
It was so unlike me.
“So that was it?” Mitsuke asked regaining her voice.
“Yes, I’m not about to get involved with him and he has Candace. I don’t know if I should be getting involved at all.” That was my inner insecurities talking, because boy did I ever want him to just grab me and take me. Take me in whatever way he wanted.
I didn’t even care what that meant. Tai was this badass alpha male who I was sure knew exactly what to do in the bedroom, or in or case not the bedroom.
Mitsuke pouted. “You know you want to. Come on.” Her face brightened with a smile. “The other hand please.”
She was doing my nails. Refused to allow me to go into the cave tomorrow looking like I lived in a cave. We’d sat on the floor of my bedroom for the last half an hour talking and doing each other’s nails.
This was the longest day ever. But probably the highlight of my year so far.
I was enjoying swimming around like a mermaid then Tai came along and zapped me into that confident woman.
It was the way he looked at me. That look that devoured me, then the way he kissed and I swear to God when his mouth was on my breast I had to hold back from screaming out in orgasm.
I was crazy. What was I even entertaining this for?
I still wasn’t ready.
“My God girl stop thinking so hard. Your brain will explode. Just promise me you’ll give this a shot if you have one.”
“Mitsuke, I’m hyped up on happy hormones. I don’t even know what I’m saying right now.” I laughed. “I can’t promise anything. Tomorrow I could fall back into my depressive state.”
I hardly even remembered that stupid email from yesterday about the lake house. That house had been so important to me. It was all I thought about, as if a house could really bring happiness.
Tai made me feel wild and free, hopeful just like it used to be when I came to Japan.
“You don’t have to. Phoebe, I don’t think I’ve ever seen you look so happy and hardly anything’s happened. Unless there’s something more that happened in that cave and you aren’t saying.” She narrowed her gaze.
“No,” I chuckled. “Weird as it is I would tell you.”
“What’s weird?”
“He’s your cousin.”
“And I’m your best friend. We have to talk right? Plus I like talking to you about this stuff. For a while it felt inappropriate. You know, while you were going through your divorce. Your divorce got finalized around about the same time he got back and things were so messy with you and Jason. It felt weird to talk about men, or Tai.”
“It’s okay. I understand.” I’d already assumed that to be the reason. “Thank you for always being there for me.”
“Don’t be silly. That is part and parcel. Sisters forever remember?”
