Page 99 of The Rules Of Attraction
When I thought I suffered emotion overload with Alex I was wrong.
That didn’t feel like this. With him it was more the case of me trying to slow my feelings down and not jump in head first.
With Tom it felt … wrong.
It all felt wrong. All of it.
That kind of emotional overload was the type that could give a person a nervous breakdown.
“You loved me once,” he reminded. “And maybe you stopped when you found out what I did, but love like ours doesn’t just go away. A part of you must still love me.” He added.
Those words broke into me. Broke me right down.
I did love him once, but it meant nothing.
I’d loved him so much that I tried my hardest to make us work, make everything work. Both what I wanted and what he wanted. I tried and that was just the thing. It wasmewho tried, and that spanned over a lot of years.
So yes, sure, I would never deny loving him once.
But, he killed it.
He’d killed everything I’d ever felt, and this call was salt on my wounds that were starting to heal.
He was toxic to me.
“Tom, I really need you to leave me alone and stop calling me.” This was hurt. Heartbreak and hurt.
“I won’t give up, Summer.”
I didn’t answer. I just hung up.
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Alex
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Sometimes I really wished thatI could be wrong.
I started my checks on Devon with a clear mind, clear of my judgements and reservations.
Clear of any suspicious thoughts I had towards him.
I did the normal security checks first to get those out of the way. Those were all fine.
Satisfied that Devon was clean that way, I then looked at his company website and did my own personal review I usually carried out when working with a company.
First I’d go to their website and look over their updates, their products and services page and it helped if they had a section where their customers could leave reviews.
Devon’s company had one of such, and being the professional businessman he was he had a really good webpage.
Too good. That led me to a further search and I stumbled across a comment on Devon’s company left on a site called Which Investments. It was one of those community discussion sites that people threw out questions and answers.
The comment stated:
“Langdon Inc are a bunch of thieves. Investing in Bottlebrite ruined my life. Something has to be done about these people who take our money and leave us to rot in the dirt when everything goes to hell.”
I looked up Bottlebrite, a company that specialized in these new age water bottles that were supposed to be made with water filters. Their shares plummeted recently and the company went bust.
