Page 64 of Rock & Roll Nights: The Lila and Rivers Edit
He slipped a hand down between us and then between my legs, and with a quick movement pulled my panties to the side. When he reared back to look at me again, his face was wicked. He was finished asking questions, now. He knew exactly what he wanted, and he was going to take it.
I bit my lip, trying to get ready for what was to come, but still wasn’t prepared when his fingers dipped suddenly into thewetness between my legs, spreading me and feasting on how badly I wanted him. I cried out and bowed up off the couch, every ounce of my focus coming to rest between my legs, and when he spread me further and slipped two fingers inside me, I nearly sobbed with the building tension. I bit down on his shoulder, unable to stop myself, and he groaned.
“Bite me like that, and you’re going to leave a mark,” he grunted, sliding his fingers in deeper.
I bit him harder.
And, like that was some sort of sign, he slipped his fingers out of me, stood up, and yanked his jeans off. He was hard and ready, his cock bobbing with desire, and I whimpered slightly. Some part of me was trying to remind my heart that this wasn’t a good idea and that I definitely shouldn’t be agreeing to it. I didn’t know what was going on with Rivers lately, but he’d been the opposite of forthcoming, and this situation was basically guaranteed to break me.
And fuck it all, I didn’t care. When he came back to me, I welcomed him with open arms, and when he murmured something about me being a bad girl for having bitten him, I allowed myself to grin.
When he slid his cock inside of me, not stopping until he was fully buried, I let myself close my eyes and tip my head up, reveling in the sensation of having him again and trying to memorize every last inch of him.
Because I might not understand what he was doing, and I might not know how he really felt about me. But I didn’t think I’d ever have the strength to say no to Rivers Shine when he wanted me.
* * *
Half an hour later, he pulled himself off me and stared at me, his chest heaving with breathlessness. We were both covered insweat, and I was still floating somewhere above us, my mind on the way he’d slammed into me again and again and again like he was trying to prove something.
To either himself or me.
I fought to focus on his face, though, and bring myself back into the present moment.
“So, I’m thinking maybe we play this song at the show tonight. What do you think?”
It took me several long, tense moments to understand what the hell he was even talking about. Then it snapped back into place. Oh. The song we’d been working on before he jumped me.
Right.
“The song? Yes, sure,” I breathed. “We just have to finish it first.”
He nodded and rose up, sliding back into his jeans and then sitting down and scribbling on the sheets of paper like nothing had happened between us. I watched him…and tried to get my feet back under me.
So, I’d just let him have me on the couch in his bedroom, and now we’d be performing this song tonight.
Sure. Terrific. I mean, I’d agreed to it.
And I’d known when I did it that I was agreeing to a whole lot more than just the song. This whole afternoon had been about more than that, and yet here I was going along for the ride. It was a no good, very bad idea. I’d already seen where this road led, and when it came to Rivers Shine, it would be straight to heartbreak. He took me flying up into the clouds and then dumped me the moment he started to feel too much.
I knew it. I’d experienced it too many times to pretend he didn’t.
And yet I was making that same mistake again. I wasn’t even trying to hide it from myself.
But I was hoping that this time, it might be different.
This time, I might be able to keep him around long enough to actually reach him. Because I’d seen how much he wanted me when he kissed me. I’d felt the tension in his muscles and the need vibrating through him.
He wasn’t as finished with me as he’d been pretending.
I just had to figure out how to reach him.
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RIVERS
God, Lila’s voice was heartbreaking. Haunting. Beautiful.
I’d only heard her do upbeat songs before. I mean, yeah, she’d also performed my love song, but even that had a relatively quick tempo. It hadn’t given her time to really stretch into the notes or show her range.
