Page 36 of Breaking Free (Guarded Hearts)
You can’t live without her
And you don’t know what to do
The only thing that’s left
Is a shell of the person you used to be
You don’t know yourself anymore
You have to find her just to see
If there’s still a chance
If she’ll take you back
If she’ll save you from yourself
If she can forgive you for the things you lack
She’s the one who made you see
The one who changed the game
The one who showed you how to love
And now you’ll never be the same
Because you can’t get her out of your head
The night she left still haunts you
And you need to make it right
But you don’t know what you do
So you vow to yourself that things will change
You want to give her something new
Something she never thought she’d have
Maybe that’s what she needs from you
So you vow to give her yourself
And you finally know what to do.
You need to tell her to her face
I’m sorry and I love you
Tears are streaming down my face by the time Drew gets to the last line in his song. I can’t believe he is here saying these things to me.What do I do? Can I forgive him?
He throws the microphone on a nearby table and places his hands on the sides of my face. “I have missed you so fucking much, James. Until you left, I had no idea how much I needed you. I know you may not believe me, but nothing happened that night. I just wanted you to think it did. I wanted to drive you away because I couldn’t deal with the shit in my own head. I knew the next day, though, how much of a mistake I had made. You’reitfor me, you’re my fucking forever. Even if I’m not yours anymore.”
He’s waiting for me to respond but it’s like my mouth isn’t working. My head is so damn scrambled with everything. He never touched her? Can I believe him?
His eyes seem defeated, and after I fail to say anything to him, he drops his hands and walks away from me. I turn, watching him for a minute, trying to figure out what to do. Will I be okay knowing I let him walk away? What will it be like not having him with me when I know he could be? My head is killing me from the decision looming over me. That’s when Carter comes up beside me.
