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“Yeah, well I got him back so it was worth it.” She smiles.
“I’m really glad Luca has gone easy on me.” Chelsey shakes her head and we all glare at her.
“Some of us definitely haven’t gotten it easy,” Blake grumbles and I nod in agreement.
“Do you know the reason for the impromptu party?” Maeghen asks and I just shake my head.
“Does Colin ever need a reason? Other than to piss me off?”
“Oh yeah, I’m sure that’s what he’s been doing, right?” Anja gives me a look.
“Yeah, what else would he be doing?”
“Uh, fucking you senseless?” She chuckles, and everyone mumbles in agreement.
“Oh please, like you all haven’t had sex with someone you didn’t like before?”
They all pause before murmuring agreements.
“Besides, it doesn’t matter. I’m just using him to get through these next few months. Then the Rites will be over, the season will be done, he’ll graduate, and that’s it.”
“That’s my girl.” Anja raises her hand up for a high-five. “Hit it and quit it.”
I chuckle. “No shit. It’sColin. It was never going to go anywhere.”
Yet when I say the words, the stupid pang in my stomach is back and maybe I need to see a doctor about it. Because there has to be something medically wrong. In no way does it have to do with anything else I may or may not be feeling for Colin.
Because I’m not feeling anything other than disdain.
I can’t.
Blake broughta flask full of vodka that we’ve all shared while we hang out in my room before heading downstairs. As the music gets louder and more voices appear we decide we should probably join.
That, and we ran out of our own alcohol.
Downstairs, I don’t immediately see Colin and vow not to seek him out. I’m sure his eyes are going to be on me even though I don’t want them there. I stick close to my friends as we navigate the crowd of people that have overtaken my house.
Mads is quick to steal Blake away, and she doesn’t immediately call out for help so I figure she’s okay with it. I want to get out of the stuffy house, and step out into the backyard. The cool air instantly feels so much nicer, but then I see him.
“Oh shit,” Maeghen says, seeing what I am.
Colin is in the hot tub, but of course he’s not alone. He’s shirtless with only that fucking chain around his neck. The one I’ve had bite into his skin while we’ve had sex. Right now some girl I don’t recognize is toying with it while she’s talking to him. Of course it’s not just them, there are several women in the hot tub, and they’re all looking at him like they’re about to know what it feels like when he’s holding them down and fucking them.
What he does to me.
Every night.
Yet, right now he doesn’t even see me or the fury I’m sure is evident on my face.
“Want to kill him?” Maeghen asks, and I shake my head.
“No. He just wants to get a reaction from me.” I know that’s what this is, but I can’t help the way I do want to kill him.Every time he’s gotten mad another man has looked at me. Every time he’s gotten mad at me for talking to another man.
And this is what he’s doing?
Fuck. That.
I walk over, doing my best to hide any emotion, keeping my head held high as I approach.
