Page 60 of Sweet Omega
“No, I’ll be fine,” Ludiin lied, pressing his forehead to the wall beside the doorframe. He wasn’t sure he’d be fine. He was fucking scared.
“Don’t be ridiculous. You know you can’t do this alone.”
“I will,” he said, barely holding himself together. “Please… just go away.”
There was a pause. Then Tarymn’s voice hardened. Commanding. His alpha voice slipping through. “Damn it, Ludiin. Open the door.”
Ludiin shivered, biting down a whimper as his body reacted instinctively, wanting to obey, to open the door, to fall into Tarymn’s arms and let everything else fade away.
But that was the problem, wasn’t it?
He didn’t want just any alpha. He wanted him. And Tarymn had brought someone else.
Ludiin’s knees gave out as he sank to the floor, his back against the door. Tears blurred his vision and he didn’t bother to stop them. A raw sob escaped and then another.
Why did it have to be like this?
Why couldn’t he just be normal? Why did he have to be such a tangled mess of nerves, tripping over his own words and fumbling everything? Other omegas seemed to meet alphas with ease, while he turned into a hopelessly awkward wreck.
Why couldn’t he want someone else, anyone else? Why couldn’t he just be like others? This would’ve been so much easier.
He dragged himself off the floor and collapsed onto the bed, burying his face in the pillow praying like hell his heat would show him mercy this time. Maybe it would burn out quickly, leave him numb instead of aching and needy.
He couldn’t go to Tarymn. Not ever.
Ludiin squeezed the pillow tighter, teeth digging into his bottom lip as a fresh wave of desire and dread knotted in his stomach. He couldn’t keep living like this, teetering between desperation and desire, wanting someone he shouldn’t. He had to find a way out.
Maybe he and Luci should go somewhere. Disappear.
He could make money selling pleasuring bots. He already had a few made. He could find a manufacturer and set up an online site. It could work.
It could.
But…the planet was in chaos right now. No one knew what was going to happen. The alpha king was gone and in his place was his brother Maxus. Everyone was waiting to see what was going to happen. Will omegas be restricted from public spaces? It remained to be seen. Ludiin had a feeling it was only going to get worse.
“Ludiin?” Tarymn’s voice broke through the haze. “Open the door. He’s gone.”
“I’m fine, Tarymn,” Ludiin called back, voice hoarse. “You don’t have to worry about me.”
“You’re not fine,” came the growl. “Open the door. Now.”
Ludiin winced as Tarymn’s alpha voice struck him like a punch. His body obeyed before his brain could argue. He pushed himself up, his skin flushed, his body trembling, and unlocked the door with a shaking hand.
Tarymn stepped inside immediately, shutting the door behind him with a firm click. His scent flooded the room, intoxicating and painfully arousing. As if he wasn’t aroused enough.
He was fucking dying.
“Do you have any idea how dangerous this is?” he snapped, his eyes blazing. “You can’t spend your fucking heat alone. I thought you understood that.”
Ludiin’s heart clenched, throat tight with everything he couldn’t say.
“I…”
Tarymn gripped his arms, dragged him close and crushed their lips together.
Ludiin’s skin prickled, a shiver rolling down his spine as goosebumps rose along his arms. Tarymn’s touch was different now. Raw. Consuming.
He wasn’t just dominant. He wasferal.
