Page 63 of Crash Course Omega
Maddock's reactions could just be because of his alpha senses, and not his real feelings for me. Maybe he doesn’t want his scent match to be taken away from him, rather than actually caring about me.
“And you don’t think telling me like this might fuck everything up for me?” he asks as he squeezes my hand. “Do you want to bond with him? Is that what I need to expect? That I’m going to spend the rest of my career with you mated to my partner, and I can’t be with you?”
I press my lips together, turning from him, trying to hold it together.
But he catches my chin between rough fingers, asking me to return to him.
“And what about me, Harmony?” he asks, the weight of his words dragging me down. “Is there nothing to explore here?”
I pause, and he switches from squeezing my hand to stroking his thumb across my knuckles like he used to.
An image flutters across my mind of being curled up in bed with the three of them, absolutely sated from hours of making love, all of us sleeping soundly as their scents and pheromones surround me.
I almost purr as the idea sparks my omega senses, urging me towards telling Maddock to just take me right here.
“You remember how perfect it was for us, don’t you?” he asks, bringing himself closer, longing swelling in his voice. “We were so right for each other that we wanted to share a bite within the first week. Do you feel the same way about Jaxx as well?”
I can’t answer him because the three of them are so different. Maddock can take my breath away with one look, Jaxx can set my body on fire with a smirk, and the peace I find with Everest is what I’ve searched for all my life.
“You wouldn’t have told me about Jaxx unless you wanted something from me,” he says carefully. “There’s no reason for you to talk to me unless there is something else going on.”
“I already told you, I—”
“You’re wearing the earrings I gave you when you won the F2 championship. You only ever wore that shade of lipstick when we were on dates. You’ve dressed up so elegantly I feel like a fucking troll next to you. And I know how much you primp and prepare when you really want to make an impact. I want to know if you did that for me, Harmony.” He kisses my hand so softly I have to bite my lip to stop my whimper. “Harmony, please… Don’t tell me you don’t want anything from me when you look so gorgeous that it's taking everything to hold myself back.”
I swallow my groan of need as he edges forward, his hips pressing against mine.
He suddenly releases my chin, yanking at the zip of his suit, tugging at the neck of his body warmer.
“What are you doing?”
My eyes widen as they land on the orange collar of a t-shirt, and I don’t need to see the hedgehog logo. I know instantly it’s from the first amusement park we went to after we matched.
“I still wear it for every race. It's my good-luck charm. I stay safe because I know you're with me when I drive.”
The way his gaze traces me and how his scent surrounds him makes me realize even more strongly that I never stopped lovinghim. It was just a case of protecting myself from Maddock, who thought everything about me was wrong.
“We broke up for a reason,” I murmur, forcing the words out. “And it wasn’t because of how we felt about each other. I tried to tell you what I wanted and needed, but support has never been your forte. You like taking risks, but that’s only on the track. Everything else is straight-laced and regimented. In the end, I knew you would never bond with me.”
I’m glad he looks like he’s taking time to think about it instead of just firing back another defensive excuse.
“The bite was complicated…”
“You were the only one who needed my Dad’s approval to become my mate. I never asked you for any of that. I lovedyou, Maddock. Not the future world champion. And it felt like neither of us would change.”
“I can change,” he says so fiercely that I believe him, just like I did in the past when he asked me to wait for him.. “I can change a million times as long as it means I can be with you again. And especially if I know I have to compete with Jaxx,” he says with a growl.
“I don’t want it to be about competing with Jaxx, at least with me. I’m just trying to tell you what might happen in the future.”
“Am I part of that future or not?” Maddock leans in close enough for him to brush his nose against my cheek, and my omega senses sing with how much I need him. “You can't tell me there's nothing here, Harmony. Look at you. I'm not even touching you, and you're perfuming like you're still my omega.”
“Maddock…” I whisper, half begging him to do it, half pleading him to stop.
As soon as he kisses me, all my defenses shatter and I fall into him.
He catches my whimper with his tongue as he slides it across mine, my eyes rolling behind closed lids as the full force of my alpha descends on me.
My nails dig into his thick upper arm as his thumb massages my bite mark, and memories tumble with my pleasure.
