Page 62 of Crash Course Omega
Harmony
The door to the stairwell slams behind us, and I just pray no one else is here.
Anger pours off of Maddock, and it shouldn’t be so hot. But the second we’re enclosed in the dim, empty space, he throws his arms around me, backing me against the wall, and shivers run through me.
His expression is breathtaking. But for the worst reasons. I shouldn’t enjoy the way it looks like his heart’s breaking. Or how his hands tremble as he takes hold of my wrist, staring at it like his world’s ending.
I want to lie to him just to see what he'll do. He made me wait so long for a bite, so would he wait for me, too?
He spent so much of our relationship being brutally honest. So, will he tell me how he really feels after all these years apart if he knows how deep it goes with Jaxx and my emerging feelings for Everest?
“Harmony.” The way he says my name, the tremble of his throat, how his pheromones seep out of him, it all gets to me. My back straightens, my breath shuddering through me as my heart thumps along with my core. I beg my body not to slick and show him what he’s doing to me.
I miss him so desperately, and feeling his warmth around me makes all those distant feelings come rushing back.
“Tell me what happened. Tell me you haven’t mated with him,” he wheezes through thick breaths.
My eyes flutter closed, my omega senses bubbling at how conflicted he sounds.
“Mated with who?” I ask, my voice thick.
“Jaxx!” he nearly shouts before he catches himself. “Fucking Jaxx. It’s him, isn’t it?”
“I just told you I did this to myself. I haven’t mated with him or anything like that.”
His shoulders heave as he tries to get himself under control. But I want him to go wild. He’s stirring me up and I want him to push me so that he might throw me over his shoulder and drag me back to his hotel room. Or I can just ask him to fuck me here.
My body has been wired since Jaxx helped me, and being so close to Maddock makes everything harder. Especially when he dips his head and a low growl rumbles from him, along with a wash of old leather and firewood that reminds me of home.
I shudder under him, instinctively notching open my legs as I tip my head back. He holds my tender hand so close to his mouth that it would have been easy for him to place his teeth over the mark and bond with me himself.
My eyes shutter closed, trying to escape the mad thoughts. We didn’t come here for this. That’s why we need to talk.
I’ve been running it over nonstop in my head. There are so many things I want to say to him, but I don’t know where to start.
I clear my throat and his body tenses up, and guilt hits me, even though I haven’t said anything.
“But Jaxx and I have scent matched. And we’ve already started bonding.”
I force myself to look at him as I say it. I won’t hide away from the truth, especially when it involves him.
We aren’t in a relationship anymore. It’s been three years, and I don’t have any obligation towards him. If I found out he had another omega when I was about to start filming, I’m not sure if I could hold myself together. Especially if he rejected me as well. But I don’t want to do that to him.
“Dammit, Harmony,” he growls through gritted teeth. “Why the fuck didn't you tell me?”
“Because you're my ex, Maddock. In a way, it's none of your business.”
“You're the one who left me!” he snarls, and I flinch back, knocking against the wall. The guilt at his pain slices through me, but I don’t want him to think I’m scared of him. I’ve been with alphas worse than him since we broke up. But just because they were angrier, rougher, or more possessive doesn’t mean what I'd been through with Maddock became anything less.
“Shit, I'm sorry,” he gasps, clenching his eyes, running a hand through his hair. “I'm so fucking sorry. I just don't know how to act now that you're back. I don't know how to be around you when it hurts so fucking much.”
The look he gives me nearly cracks my resolve.
His tension and earnestness are too much. I don’t want to get ahead of myself, but it’s like he might actually want to try to listen to me.
“I'm telling you because I want to explore what's here with Jaxx, and I don't want you to find out in a way that might hurt you even more.”
Like if he catches us kissing or we make an announcement to the press or even if Maddock smells my slick on him. And there’s still Everest to talk about as well, though things are a lot more unclear with him.
