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“I know,” I conceded and let out a fortifying breath addressing his earlier statement. “But I’m confused… this is a lot. Based on everything you told me, this probably won’t even make it into the news unless some people want major lawsuits on their hands. So I’m not entirely too worried about that whole part of this.”
“Then what are you worried about?”
I let out a laugh that really wasn’t a laugh. “You.” I stated honestly.
“Me?”
“Yeah, I’m worried about you. Even though I believe you when you tell me you’re not a sex addict and you were clean when we started dating, I just can’t help where my brain has gone in the last ten minutes. All I’m envisioning is you in some seedy sex clubs with, like, grimy leather and lace all over, naked people having sex in dark alcoves, two-way glass, and some perverts jerking off in a corner. And with that mental image, I’m trying to figure out where you fit into all of that.”
“Wow, that’s a really vivid picture you just painted,” he said, and he couldn’t hide his amusement. “But if I could, both Landow’s and Club Wanton were nothing like that. Instead think high-end, red rope with satin and champagne.”
“So no tetanus shot required upon entry?” I quipped back. When he was obviously not amused by my comment I let out a breath and continued, “Sorry but that description really isn’t helping much. All I’m thinking about now are high-end hookers.”
He let out a frustrated groan. “Fine. Let me clear this all up for you then.”
“You don’t have to get fresh with me,” I snapped. I couldn’t help but respond like that, feeling that he was getting frustrated with me, but it washimwho was getting caught red-handed here. Not me. I did nothing wrong.
I wasn’t the degenerate who attended sex clubs in every city I lived in.
“I’m sorry honey. It’s just, this is also a lot for me. I quite literally never meant for anyone to learn about any of this. It was just between me and Loving - Papas wasn’t even really aware. I mean he knew something, but didn’t really. The clubs Loving and I went to were very high-end, and yes, sex clubs. Everyone signed an NDA, but now we’re learning that that might not have been as ironclad as we had thought it to be. Regardless,everything was very much on the up-and-up and there wasn’t anything seedy, necessarily, about the club.”
He let that sit for a minute before continuing, “At Club Wanton, yes, Loving and I were somewhat regulars,” to which I couldn’t help but close my eyes because I couldn’t look at him - the man I loved, while I learned that he was a fuckingregularat a sex club. “We initially started going because we were curious. What eighteen or twenty year old male isn’t, right? Not that that’s an excuse but it was part of our logic and curiosity at the time. Plus, Loving is kind of kinky, but I’m not here to spill his secrets.”
He took a sip of his water and then continued, “You know my degree at Zeiders was in human sexuality. So, I kind of did additional research while I was at the club,” he shrugged as he said it. “I would sit back and watch and sip my drink. At least in the beginning.”
Starting to feel uncomfortable by the thought of him continuing with his recounting his sex club activities and getting into how he used that beautiful mouth of his to seduce and kiss another person, I put my hand up, “You don’t need to tell me any more.”
“Yes I do,” he exclaimed and said a little forcefully. “Jesus, Scottie, we’re alreadyhere. As I said, I never meant for anyone but me and Loving to know this, because it’s not like it’s something I’m proud of, but now that it’s out there - I’m going to tell you the whole fucking truth. You of all people need to know - and actually, youaloneneed to know everything.”
Crossing my arms over my chest I replied, “Well go on then, tell me your wholefuckingtruth.”
“I went to the club… for you.”
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“Excuse me?!”
“Yeah. I went for you,” he reiterated, as if that would explain this any better. He went on, “I watched people have sex for you. I studied fucking human sexualityfor you. I pierced my cockfor you.”
My jaw was on the ground. What the actual… what did he just say?
I sputtered and was unable to come up with a response.
“Just wait. Alright? Don’t take this like I’mblamingyou or something ridiculous like that. I’m not. Instead, you were more like the inspiration - the catalyst. I studied human sexuality so that I could learn everything there was to learn about sex. I wanted to learn all of the ways that I could satisfy and bringyoupleasure. That’s also why I had my dick pierced because of all the ways it is supposed to enhance the experience for both partners, but primarily for you.”
“Umm… that may seem sweet and flattering to some, but you realize how weird as fuck that also is right?”
“Jesus, this is coming out all wrong,” he responded, obviously frustrated with himself and this whole situation. “You know I’m obsessed with you. You are well aware by now that Ifell for you the first time that I met you, which only intensified the more I got to know you. I quickly learned that this wasn’t some stupid crush, my feelings for you were and are the real thing. I knew that one day I would get my shot with you. I just had to wait until the stars aligned. I would first have to wait to be old enough for you to even consider me somewhat of a contemporary, but also be established enough to take care of you.”
I just stared at him. He was either the sweetest man alive, or the fucking craziest.
“I wanted to be set up in life so that you’d think I was worthy of you. You’re the whole fucking package, baby. I never thought I’d have a snowball’s chance in hell, so I spent years becoming my best self - for you. For you and me.”
“Mhmm. Okayyyy,” I dragged it out as I let out a puff of air. “I don’t understand how the sex club factors into all of this though.”
“I wanted to know all of the ways that I could satisfy you - to bring you pleasure. That’s why, while I worked towards being the best college quarterback in the country so that I’d guarantee that I’d get drafted to the pros and could take care of you financially as well as feel worthy and accomplished, I also studied human sexuality so I could learn everything there is to learn about sex.”
