Page 5 of Marriage Ever After
“Fuck, bunny. Don’t do this. You want me to beg you, I will. I’ll get on my knees and beg you.”
Her facial expression hardened as her hands formed fists.
“No. It’s too late.”
Anyone who knew me knew I was as stubborn as a mule. I wouldn’t give up this easily. I pulled Mila for a kiss that I should’ve done at her birthday party. She stood there not kissing me back but then her lips came alive as they kissed me back. She gave me access to her mouth as my tongue pleaded with hers. My arms roamed over her body discarding her clothing as she did the same to me. We were caught up in a moment not able to even comprehend what was going on. I moved us over to the bed throwing her suitcase on the floor, it landed with a thud. I nipped at Mila’s neck causing her to release a series of moans.
I threw her on the bed, shedding my sweats, and whatever else I had left on. I grabbed Mila’s ankle pulling her closer to the edge of our bed. I removed her yoga pants positioning her ass to be halfway off the bed. I didn’t even waste a moment as I slid into her wet core.
“Fuuuuuck…” I threw my head back in pure ecstasy.
Being inside my wife was the best thing that life had ever offered me. I was lucky, a blessed man to feel this side of Mila. I leaned in, kissing all over her body that I could. This was my plea; I gave her everything I could. I wanted her to stay, I would do better. I swear I would.
Mila scratched my back as I became rougher. I grabbed both her arms pushing it back to the bed and placing it over her head. Mila opened her eyes as I repositioned myself with one knee on the bed and my other leg standing for grip. I wasn’t making love to my wife right now; I was fucking her. Showing her every part of me, being vulnerable is the most fucked up way. She moaned and I captured it in my mouth as I gave her harsh kisses. She couldn’t leave me. No. I fucked her into absolution as she lost control over her body and came. I followed not too long after that, but I didn’t stop pumping inside of her. I dropped on top of her not wanting to let go of her body.
“I’m leaving, Kash.”
Her voice was so small and full of regret. I sat up, gripping her jaw.
“No, the fuck you’re not.”
Mila
Kash thought everything could be solved with sex sometimes and this was a reminder that it couldn’t. When he slept, I slipped out of bed and resumed packing. I didn’t want Kash to think that I was condoning this bullshit because I wasn’t.
Instead of taking the big suitcase, I took the small one. I packed essentials, left the room went to go kiss Jordan goodnight and left the house. While in the garage, I looked back at the door, I wanted to go back to bed with Kash, but this couldn’t keep happening. I couldn’t keep feeling like this. Enough was enough. I sighed as I texted our nanny, Cherise, Channing’s sister who was going to be here as early as five in the morning. The plus side was that it was the weekend, Kash could stay home for once. I slowly pulled out of the garage when it opened up and my heart constricted in a way that I didn’t know was possible as I drove away from the love of my life.
I didn’t even know when I started sobbing but I was sobbing like I lost someone. Maybe I did. My best friend, the man that I love and for sure the best husband in the world. I mourned him because I didn’t know if we could fix this.
“Fuck. FUCK!” I hit the steering wheel trying to calm myself down.
I didn’t want to go to Larissa's house because I knew that I would have to explain shit to her in the morning. I drove mindlessly for an hour then I did the last thing that I knew I didn’t want to do. I checked into a hotel near my job. I knew that I wouldn’t get to sleep much but if I could shut my eyes and not focus on Kash for all of twenty minutes then I would take it.
****
I woke up, startled out of my mind when my phone rang off the hook. I fumbled out of the sheets, grabbing my phone. I looked down at it. I slept for about two hours. It was Larissa calling me.
“Hello?”
I picked up, groggy as ever.
“Where the hell are you! Are you okay? Mila, talk to me.”
She sounded panicked which means that Channing told her what happened.
“I’m okay, Rissa.”
I could hear the audible sigh of relief.
“Okay. What the fuck, Mila! We’ve been calling and looking for you for a couple of hours now. Kash came banging on our door looking for you. Honey, tell me you’re okay?”
“I’m okay, I promise. I just, I couldn’t do it, Mila. I needed a clear mind to figure out what we’re going to do. I was hurt and he thought he could fix it with sex. I love him but I don’t love that he’s that stubborn. I need to clear my head. I’m going to text him that I’m okay.”
“No.” A voice I was way too familiar with infiltrated my ear. “You’re going to come to the fuck back home and fucking talk to ME!” Kash growled.
“Kash, listen to me for once will you? Just give me the weekend. I’m not going to argue with you. I just need a clear head to see what I want to do next.”
I heard as he stomped away from his audience.
