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“I don’t trust him with any of my friends or staff,” Lios muttered low. “Noxins are unscrupulous and selfish. I don’t blame him. He’s a product of the environment he grew up in and Noxins are opportunistic people.”
Cacala gave a belly deep laugh, and it was clear to see that Limak was charming and had plenty of humor. Had he been a human on Earth, he would have been highly desired among women with his clean looks and high level of confidence.
Soros turned the subject back to our meeting with the Ugon Master. “I’m nervous,” he said. “What if he says that I’m not good for you?”
Placing my arms around him, I nuzzled my nose against his and whispered. “He would have to be a failure as an Ugon Master because anyone who can pick up on my feelings will know that you’re the best part of my life.”
Maybe Soros was picking up on the protective energy from Nerix and Lios toward Star and Cacala or maybe he was as terrified at his core as me. His hands felt sweaty, and he sat uneasy on the bench. If the rejection from the cultural committee was final, I didn’t know what I would do. Now that I had Soros back in my life, I was certain of one thing: I couldn’t bear to ever lose him again.
CHAPTER 28
Enjoying Every Last Moment
Soros
All my life I had been fascinated with solving riddles and trying to make sense of things. That’s one of the reasons that I chose criminology as a profession.
When I first met Tania, she challenged me because nothing she did seemed logical to me. Brought up among humans, she was used to keeping thoughts private and had very tight boundaries.
From the first moment I met her, I found her beautiful and felt physically attracted to her. For every day we spent together, my fascination with her grew. Nothing about her was predictable or monotonous.
Tania was still like a mystery to solve and the fact that I couldn’t read her thoughts made it more challenging and fun to have sex with her. Like a treasure map her body gave me clues when I was on the right track to give her the pleasure that she deserved. With my previous sex partners, our telepathic bond had made it easy to know what they needed and wanted from me. With Tania I was patient and invested, slowly learning how to navigate her mind and body. Whenever I succeeded and saw her in an ecstatic orgasm, it was the most rewarding feeling.
That first night on Scilm, we made love with an emotional intensity that was raw from the fear that this might be the last time we could be together.
It wasn’t about positions but deep eye contact and our fingers boring into each other’s skin as if we could grip on hard enough that no one could pull us apart.
“We’re staying together,” Tania kept repeating but we both knew that our love wouldn’t be enough.
“More… deeper,” she cried with her elevated pulse making her voice raspy. I pushed all the way inside her and felt her wrap her legs and arms around me, holding me close. She nibbled on my earlobe before whispering into my ear. “I’ll never get enough of you, Soros,”
It was this part that blew my mind. That she could be so sure. My culture didn’t promote or support monogamy, but the way Tania loved me as if I was all she ever needed made me feel loved in a way that I never had before. She made me feel like I wasenough.
Our lips met in a deep kiss. I didn’t have words to describe how I felt, but my need to meld into one with her was so strong that I accidentally squeezed her too hard. Only when she whimpered a little did I release my iron grip.
We kept eye contact, and she caressed my face as I resumed movements to create the delicious feeling of friction between us. Tania’s gorgeous eyes were dazed with emotions and when she teared up, I stopped and hugged her. “Don’t cry, Nanish.”
“The thought that this might be the last time I make love to you…” She heaved in a deep breath as tears ran down her cheeks. “I know I should enjoy every moment with you, but all I can think about is how broken-hearted I’ll be.”
“Don’t lose hope now. We have to believe there’s a way for us to be together,” I said and lay down next to her, pulling her into my arms.
We were quiet for a long moment. My fingertips ran up and down her arm softly.
“It’s a shame that you hated the hybrid colonies so much.”
“I still have nightmares about that place.”
“And you still wouldn’t consider living on Eidrona, ever?”
“Not if they wouldn’t allow us to live together.”
I dipped my chin to see her better. “There aren’t any laws against us living together. It’s just not the norm.”
“But you once said that everyone would think that you were crazy if you lived with me. Women would come on to you and men would come on to me. No one would respect that we’re a couple. You said that it would be stressful and that it would tear us apart.”
“Tania, back then I was trying to bring some realism into your visions for our future. I never thought there would be a chance for us to get approval to be together. You were talking about us having children and with you being half human that seemed impossible.”
Tania weaved her fingers with mine. “All I know is that every time we talked about it, we ended up arguing. You made me believe that living on Eidrona wasn’t possible for us. In my mind I only see one possibility and that’s living on Earth.”
