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I narrowed my eyes, waiting for her to say “Just kidding,” but she didn’t.
This was a fucking dilemma… I wanted to help her and to support her, but the thought of being subjected to that sort of humiliation made my heart race triple time.
“Sweetie, I don’t think I can do that,” I said hoping that my endearment would soften her up.
“So you’re willing to strip me naked and touch my body and humiliate me with the whole diaper thing, but you wouldn’t allow me to do the same to you?”
My head was spinning, trying to find a solution.
“I suppose I could let you see me naked if that would help.”
“You’ve seen me naked,andtouched me.”
I frowned. “Are you asking if you can touch me while I’m naked?”
“No!” She rubbed her face with both hands. “This is all so messed up. I don’t want to see you naked, or touch you, and I certainly don’t want to put you in a diaper, but I just feel so fucking powerless and Ihateit.”
“So you think that we would be more balanced if the humiliation went both ways.”
“Yes.”
“I understand.”
“No, you don’t understand.”
“I’m okay with stripping out of my clothes, Cia. Being in the military will make you used to being naked in front of others. We shared open showers and stuff. I mean, if it makes you feel better.”
“It won’t make me feel better and I don’t want you naked and close to me. I just wanted to see if you were willing to do it.”
“All right, then whatdoyou want?”
“I want these two weeks to be over and get out of here.”
“I understand,” I said again.
She was compliant when I dressed her in the pink set of soft clothes, which had a picture of a kitty on her belly. She even allowed me to put the hairband with a bow in her hair.
“You look cute,” I said, but that only made her roll her eyes.
“Do you want to go and play a board game or something?” I asked.
“Can a toddler play pool?” she asked and reached her hands up to me. As the most natural thing in the world, I picked her up and held her close.
“I think I’m going to call you my little candy floss while you’re a toddler,” I joked as we walked up to the main house.
Cia held on to me and sighed. “I can’t wait to be Black again.”
I didn’t say it, but a part of me hoped that she would never go back to that awful look. She was so much softer and sweeter without all that darkness.
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Cia
Therese was in the common room when we walked in, and it was impossible not to notice how she lit up when she saw Gabriel.
“How cute you two look together,” she said and placed her hand on his arm.
“You can put your daughter down now, she’s a toddler and can walk by herself. Actually we’ve never seen anyone carry their little ones before, but we didn’t want to stop it since the intimacy was good for you.”
