Page 54 of Our Cracked Pieces
“Very,” he agreed.
“So, what now?”
“Whatever you want,” he replied, his hands still on my hips. There were no sudden movements, no unapproved caressing, no nonconsensual liberties taken.
“What if I freak out?” I asked.
“Then I stop, and we try again later,” came his easy response. “Maybe we go to couple’s counseling for some guidance if we keep getting it wrong.”
“And if I can never bring myself to give you a blowjob? Then what?” Those were the worries. Those were the fears. A long time ago, I heard the saying, whatever you don’t do for your partner, there’s always someone else out there that will, and that stuck with me. The worry that I might not be enough was real.
Lorcan’s expression soften. “Then I’ll never get a blowjob.”
“But-”
“Rowan, I’m past the age where I’m ruled by my dick,” he said. “I just want you, baby. Any way I can get you, that’s how I want you.”
Believing him, it was time to make a decision.
Chapter 38
Lorcan~
Ifelt like the rest of my life was in this moment. With Rowan perched on my lap, looking at me, scared out of her fucking mind that I was going to judge her, this was where we decided if we were worth the effort and heartache guaranteed to come.
And even though I got vindication for Molly all those years ago, I knew, without a shadow of a doubt, that I was going to gather everything I could on Officer Connors and remind him of his past. If Rowan couldn’t live in peace all these years later, then the bastard shouldn’t be able to either.
“I like the way you kiss me,” Rowan said, and she said it so softly, it took me a second to register what she’d said.
“You do, huh?”
She nodded. “It’s like…like you put everything you feel into them.”
“Everything I feel foryou,”I clarified.
“It…it was always over my clothes,” she said, and it took me a second to follow her line of thought. When I finally did, I understood this was her way of giving me her permission.
“Rowan, let me be clear here,” I told her. “I have no understanding about what you’ve been through. While I can grasp that it was horrible, I’m not a woman. I’ll never know how you feel, and how what’s happened to you has changed you. So, if we do this, I need you to lead because I don’t know what I’m doing. And the last thing I want to do is hurt you or me.”
Rowan nodded slowly. “O…okay.”
“Then take my hands and put them where you want them, baby,” I told her.
Untying the belt on her rob, Rowan let it drop off her shoulders, and that’s when I saw she was only wearing a purple tank top and white cotton panties.
My breathing was quickly speeding up with anticipation of where we were going tonight, and not only the physical part of it. This woman was trusting me with something she’s never given anyone else, and I was going to guard it fiercely.
My hands tightened on her hips as Rowan reached for the hem of her shirt and pulled it up and over her head. Those huge tits she couldn’t disguise, no matter how professional her attire, were right in my face, and they were as magnificent as I knew they would be. Big, heavy, and firm with hard, pink, nipples, ready for my mouth.
Rowan grabbed my left hand with her right, and placing her hand over mine, intertwining our fingers, making our two hands one, she brought it up and placed it on her right tit. Letting out a low moan, she used my hand to squeeze that big mound, and my dick was filling rapidly beneath her.
When she went to grab my other hand, I closed my eyes and dropped my head back, relishing the feel of her tits in my hands. Her skin was soft, supple, and I wanted to lick it all over.
I wasn’t sure how long we played with her tits, but soon, she was panting. “Lorcan, I want your mouth on me.” My head came up and my eyes snapped open. It was on the tip of my tongue to ask her if she was sure, but I didn’t want to rattle her confidence. Then she really fucked me up when she said, “No one’s ever put their mouth on me before.”
Sweet Baby Jesus.
If no one has ever sucked her tits, then it was probably a safe bet to say that Rowan’s never had her pussy eaten before either. And the thought of being the first man to make her feel those sensations had me damn near losing my mind with it.
