Page 68 of New Beginnings
He was wealthy, good looking, and a chameleon. He let me see what he wanted me to see. Not who he really was. He was older and married with a family, but he led me to believe that his marriage was ending, and he wanted to start a new life with me. Young andstupid, I know. Anyway, I’m not sure what happened, but something changed with him. He started drinking more, and that’s when the abuse started. Not only physical abuse but also emotional.
He was the president of the university, and he held my future in his hands. And he knew it and he made sure I did too. So, I made a plan, and I stuck with it when the time came. Of course, his disappearance was a high-profile case. You probably can still find news articles and footage from that time. But anyway, I was questioned and of course his family tried to keep our relationship a secret while also accusing me of being obsessed with the university’s president so that’s why I did something to him. Although some family members knew about our relationship, they told the authorities I was a lying, crazy lunatic.
But even though no one could prove that I had anything to do with his disappearance, I was the number one suspect. And to this day his body has not been discovered. And that’s something I will take to my grave. I’m sorry sweetheart but I will let you know I killed him, but I will not tell you where to find his body.
“It doesn’t matter to me where she buried him,” I mumbled. “He could rot in Hell for all I care.”
I told you all that to say this. About four weeks ago, I was stopped by the FBI coming out of Siobhan’s daycare. I wasn’t sure at first what it was about. I hoped it wasn’t about you know who, but I knew if it wasn’t about him then it had to be about you, my brother, or daddy’s “preaching.”
I got into the passenger side of the agent’s car and at first, he stuck to the normal routine questions. What’s my name, date of birth, that kind of shit, butthen the questions turned to you. Questions like what’s your name, where are you from, we’re you connected to the Sinners and how did you connect to them. And immediately my hackles rose. I know no one other than family knows of your connection to the Sinners especially since you changed your last name.
How the hell does he know who your family is?
“Great question babe.”
I turned the page and resumed reading.
Anyway, he has evidence of what I did. He showed me some photographs he shouldn’t have. Where the hell he got them from I have no fucking idea because all these years I thought I hid my tracks pretty good. But I guess that’s what money can get you. The agent wants me to spy on you. Of course, I refuse to do that. He said he will have CPS take the kids if I don’t cooperate which I will never let happen. I got the distinct feeling he has another agenda that doesn’t have anything to do with trying to hem the club up, or me really. You are his target.
I’m scared of what he’s going to do to me because I won’t help. I’m not a snitch and I will take the kids and run before I turn my back on you. So, if anything happens to me, please make sure you look into Agent Alan Revels. He had something to do with it.
Tell my babies mama loves them and if I’m no longer here make sure Siobhan knows how much I love her and will miss her. And I want you to know that if I’m dead and you’re reading this, I’m taking care of Luca if he’s with me.
I love you with all my heart, J.D., but you need to live the life you deserve sweetheart. You deserve happiness and you deserve someone to love you. You’ll makesome woman very happy. Just please don’t be bitter about how things ended with us. I’ve never experienced love like yours and if I die, I will die knowing you loved me with everything in you. Open your heart to the possibility of love again and you know if she’s a bitch, I will haunt her ass from the grave. I hope you know you will always have a place in my heart. I’ll see you in the next life, my love. Live life to the fullest and I’m watching over you and Siobhan with a smile on my face and love in my heart.
Love your partner in crime in this life and the next,
Dani.
I closed the journal, my heart heavy with emotion, and exhaled deeply, unable to contain my feelings any longer. Jumping from the chair, I let out a piercing scream. I tore apart my dining room until there was nothing left but a mess of splintered wood and shattered glass. I sank down the wall, my body collapsing onto the floor, my sobs echoing through the room. Rebel sat beside me on the floor, wrapped her arms around me, and let me cry in her arms until I couldn’t cry anymore.
After years of suspecting, Dani finally confirmed all my worst fears. My wife and son were killed because of me.
SHE CHOSE YOU...AND SO DID I
Rebel Pierce
I tried my best to hold him tightly, feeling the weight of his pain and anger in my arms. I knew it would be difficult for him to read that letter Dani had written him, as his hands trembled. That was why I gave him some privacy so he could digest whatever she had to say alone. It wasn’t my business what a wife had to say to her husband, but I didn’t expect him to destroy everything in his dining room or for him to be sitting on the floor sobbing.
Her diaries were intact but tossed everywhere. Shattered glass littered the floor along with broken and overturned furniture. This resulted from years filled with simmering anger, deep-seated pain, and irreplaceable losses. But hopefully the beginning of healing for him.
It was difficult for me to witness anyone in tears, but seeing J.D. completely unravel was truly heart-wrenching. It had to be devastating to realize the person you loved all this time hadkilled someone. And that she was possibly killed because of that secret, and you couldn’t do anything about it. Even time wouldn’t be able to stop that guilt.
From her diaries we knew she had killed Corey Astor, a rich, and powerful man. And we believed this might have been what Agent Revels held over her head. But I had no idea what he wanted her to do in order to bury the information he had on her. I hoped it was something she explained in her letter to him because I was getting tired of finding the answers to some questions only to be bombarded with more questions. I was sure J.D. was at that point too. We needed a break from the constant search for answers. We both needed this to end, and we both needed the truth.
“It’s my fault.” He pulled away from me, laid his head against the wall, and stared at the ceiling. “He was after me.”
“It doesn’t matter if Agent Revels was targeting you, there’s no way you could have known it would escalate like it did. Who goes after a pregnant woman? Especially someone in law enforcement.”
Standing to his feet, he shook his head. “I should have known my life in the mc world would bleed into my family life, Rebel. I was stupid enough to try to live a normal life even though it wasn’t possible. I knew it would lead to shit happening.”
“You couldn’t have known that.”
“I know you really don’t believe that.” He crossed his arms over his wide chest. “You were almost killed, too.”
I was affected by his life, but I also knew what the hell I was getting into. I wouldn’t let him take the blame for my decision because I could walk away from him, but it was something I wasn’t willing to do and if Dani was alive today, I didn’t believe she would let him take the blame either.
“It’s my decision to be in your life. I won’t let you take the blame for what happened to me.”
