Page 89 of Faking Forever 1
Complacent, he nods as well, leading me in the direction of where he was parked.
I guess there are worse things than being trapped in the car with your ex-boyfriend, knowing that he’s preying on your next vulnerable moment. But right now, I’m too caught up in my own fantasies to care. One’s too prominent for me even to consider what we once had. Along with not wanting to be seen with Nick, I know that if I were, it would be reported back to Josh in a heartbeat, and if it were him who caught us, I’m 212
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afraid of what happens next in that plot. Josh is silly and loves to talk a good game, but when the game is tested, it’s not really silly anymore.
And after the volleyball game, I don’t think Nick has any more chances left to get over on either of us.
Is it a bad thing to still wish him the best of luck? He’s still my first. We still share memories that, personally, I would like to believe were completely genuine for the both of us. Every moment can’t be too good to be true, I can’t come to any sort of acceptance for that concept. Nick might not be agoodguy, but evenbadguys have good elements.
Right?
It was a silent ride home, which was fine with me, but I was still curious about the talk he was so desperate to have. Or maybe it wasn’t that important after all.
“Okay, here we are,” he says, pulling into my garden-infested driveway.
Collecting my bags, I ready myself to get out of the car, rushing myself.
“Thank you.” I spit out.
“Wait a second,” he grabs my forearm, stopping me in place,
“It’ll be quick.”
I guess itisimportant.
“Right..” I pause, looking at my lap, my other hand hanging onto the door handle.
“I wanted to say that I’m glad you’re okay—after your fall and everything. That had to be scary. It scared me for you.”
he tightens his lips.
It was worse being the one who fell, but I guess I appreciate the thought.
“I just want you to know how much I regret everything.
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Including what I did to Josh. I wasn’t cool.”
“Shouldn’t you be tellinghimthat? You could’ve seriously hurt him, Nick.”
“Yeah, I realize that, alright? I was jealous—really just stupid—but look, my point is that neither of you deserved it. I thought you should also know that I broke up with Darcy, too.”
“Oh..”
Am I supposed to jump for joy? Is this a joke?
“I was um, talking to some of the guys, and they said that I should be honest with myself and accept that I only stayed with Darcy once I found out you and Josh were sort of together once you got back here. Before you left, I got upset when you told me you were leaving, so to get back at you, I started hooking up with her back then.”
His voice was starting to inherit a twang that was supposed to make me feel sorry for him. It was doing the complete opposite. My breath loosens as I hold in a laugh of disbelief.
“So, let me reiterate this—instead of just breaking up with me, you cheated on me for weeks? And with a girl whohatesmy guts? Got it.”
“Andyouexpect everybody to believe that you and Josh are dating in real life? You said yourself that you couldn’t even imagine kissing him, before.”
