Page 37 of Bound by Wreckage
“You tell me at anytime if you want to stop or if you’re not feeling something. Or if something I do reminds you of something negative. You say the word and I’m off you in a flash.”
Sex has always been release for me. It’s fun and passes the time, but I’ve never really committed fully to the act. The women in my life are only there for that purpose. Sex. There are no relationships or expectations that I’llcall them in the morning. There are no concerns for me if I’m going to be good or if they get off.
It’s just the physical act of sex.
This, though. This is something completely out of my element. I can do the sex part, that’s not the problem. She’s a beautiful woman with a great heart. It’s the emotional part that worries me. For her and for me. She has so much baggage surroundingsex, and I don’t want to add into that.
There’s so much I don’t know, that I don’t want to know, that happened to her. What if I make a move that will set her off? How the fuck am I going to comfort her instead of letting her drown in that thought?
What if me being on top scares the shit out of her and she has a panic attack or some shit. Fuck. Yeah. This is completely out of mycomfort zone, but I’ll do it for her. Whatever she needs. If this is it. Then so be it.
“And I know I’m clean. Buck demanded condoms be used for every single person except for him. It’s the only time he gave me a curtesy and took me to the doctor to get check.”
While I should be happy that asshole had a restriction, I’m fucking pissed off he had to have the damn restriction in thefirst place. Fucker. No one should have touched her. Ever.
“Thank you.” She breathes.
I smile breaking the anger threatening to take me over and joke. “Now that’s a first. I’ve never had a thank you before sex.”
The blush on her cheeks is cute.
“Kiss me,” she whispers.
“Remember. I touch you somewhere that you don’t want or like, you tell me immediately. Don’tlet me have that on my shoulders, Carsyn. I won’t be able to live with myself if I hurt you in any way.”
“I will. Promise.”
Fuck, are these butterflies actually nerves? Yeah, this is going to be a lot of firsts for me.
Our lips connect, and she meets me move for move. Her tongue sweeps in my mouth, and her taste explodes on my tongue. She’s sweet as honey. My arms wrap aroundher, pressing her body to mine. Her soft curves envelop me from top to toe.
Her hands are tentative on my arms and chest, taking their time. When her breath hitches, she tells me what she likes.
Rolling over on my back, she comes over top of me and straddles my hips. Her hands come to my chest as she pulls back slightly, staring at me with those gorgeous eyes that suck me in at everyturn.
“Nox,” she breathes, eyes dilated and hard nipples poking through her shirt.
“Yeah, gorgeous.” Her hips begin to move pressing her heat to my hardness, each stroke giving me immense pleasure. My shorts and her panties are the only thing standing in our way. It kills me to not flip her over and fuck her hard and rough. But that’s not what she needs from me. No way am I goingto fuck this up—at least not on purpose.
“Please.” Her hips move faster as she chases her orgasm. While I’d like to be the one to have my mouth and hands on her, her having this control is what she needs. So I’ll give it to her.
“Show me how you come, Carsyn.”
Her hips roll and holding myself together is a challenge, especially when she adds in the moans and mewls. Shit.
Hands on her hips, I give her a little help moving her faster and harder, ratcheting up her arousal and desire.
Carsyn’s eyes fly open, her jaw drops as an inhalation of air mixed with some sound escapes her lips as she comes. Fuck, she’s beautiful.
Pisses me off that some asshole tried to put her fire out. I push that out of my mind.
Her body falls on top of mine, andI push her hair back as she comes down.
“That was… wow.” She almost shudders her words.
“Gorgeous, glad you liked that, but that’s nothin’. You trust me.”
Her head comes up, and she studies me for long moments. “Yeah. I do.”
