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Date: April 27, 2005 2:12am
From: [email protected]
Subject: I’m Sorry
Maria,
Ok, message sent and received. I don’t live your life and walk in your shoes. I had no right to ask that question of you and I apologize. We are friends, and for that reason alone, I should support you. I’m so sorry.
To answer your question, I don’t know why I am with Erica anymore. I honestly don’t. At this point it’s out of obligation. Kinda like you feel staying with Nate. I get it.
And now on to the best news…I AM A FATHER! Erica had the baby a month ago. I know I should have written and told you, but just like I thought, my life has exploded with responsibilities. We have a baby boy and his name is Michael, after Erica’s brother who passed away. We call him Mikey and he is the cutest. I’ll try to attach a pic to the email. I’ve never done that before, so hopefully it works.
And I had no ungodly clue that babies wake up at all hours of the night. Which is why I am responding to this at 2am. Erica doesn’t really get up with him much, so it kinda falls on me. Don’t get me wrong, I love it. But it’s a lot.
And on that note, he’s crying again. Let me go and get him. Write soon.
Yours, Sam
P.S. Also, how does so much crap come out of such a little human? Like seriously!
Date: July 3, 2005 3:16pm
From: [email protected]
Subject: I have some news…
Sam,
I’m pregnant. And I don’t want to be. The thought of sharing another child with Nate is terrifying to me. I should be happy. I act happy around friends and loved ones. But internally I want to scream. Don’t judge me. I love this baby, I do. I know that it will be just another part of my life that he will control.
I’m not looking for advice or even your pity. I just needed to get that out there.
Love, Maria
P.S. Can you believe it’s been one year exactly since we met at the park? Brielle is walking now.
Date: November 11, 2005 5:32am
From: [email protected]
Subject: I also have some news….
Maria,
So, I have some news as well. You are friends with Samuel Harper, PhD. That’s right, I am officially a psychologist. And I have you to thank for it. Ultimately, you were the one that suggested I do this, which got me thinking that I could. So thank you Maria. Thank you for always believing in me.
You would think that since I am officially a psychologist now, that I would be able to shell out advice to you and also to help me with my life. The irony is pretty comical.
Since you got some things off of your chest, I guess I’ll do the same. On the night of graduation, Erica got so hammered. Her drinking has increased tenfold. Which has caused us to drift further and further apart. We fight constantly. I’m beginning to think the spur-of-the-moment decision to get married to someone I only knew for four months was not the best life choice. The only good thing it brought me was Mikey.
I hope your pregnancy is fairing better than Brielle’s and that you are accepting it now.
