Page 29 of Meek: Chasing That Gangsta Love
“Why you lookedworried all of a sudden?” She asked.
I fixedmy face quick but little did she know, I was anxious and felt the urge of needing to relax. “I’m fine Mya…you go ahead, I’ll wait right here.”
She looked backinside the store again. “What the fuck they giving away in there? Look at the line.” She frowned.
“Lottery tonight,they trying to win that money.” I told her.
“Ughhh.”She said. “I have to get my snicker and pork skins while I’m here. I can’t get those pork skins anywhere else. I’ll be back.” She said.
I leanedup against the wall and waited since I knew it would be awhile. I glanced up just in time to see a man wearing a dingy brown coat running into the abandoned house next door. I knew what was probably over there, but curiosity led me there just to see. I walked over knowing that Mya was going to be a minute. The front door was boarded but the back wasn’t and that’s where the guy went in.
I stepped insideof the dark house and was greeted by dope fiends and coke heads all over the place, literally. Taking my time, I stepped over plenty of bodies. “What you doing in here young beauty?” I followed the raspy voice as the man grabbed my arm with his dirty fingers.
I snatched back from him.“Don’t fucking touch me.”
He lookedup with his yellow teeth and smiled at me before putting a pipe in his mouth. I thought this shit was sad, really sad. I walked more into the living room where I found more people either shooting up or having some crackhead sex. I couldn’t believe my eyes when I saw a man on his back with his pants down. The woman on top of him was butt ass naked and skinny so much so that I could see her bones popping from her back as she rode his dick like they were in a room alone.
I grabbed my stomach;this shit was nasty as hell. Turning on my heels, I was all prepared to leave until I saw the small pile of coke on the table unattended. Shit! I began to sweat as my mouth watered. Thinking about the high it would give me had me weak. I felt weak on my stomach and my legs as I stared at it. I saw Meek’s face and felt the disappointment in my heart.You can fight this, Kisha! You can fight this! This isn’t who you’re supposed to be!I said to myself.
It looked good;too good and it was tempting. I balled up my fist and closed my eyes taking slow and steady breaths. When I opened my eyes, it wasn’t because I wanted to, it was because someone was calling my name. A very familiar female voice, I turned around and was looking in my mama’s face as she sat there against the wall with a dirty tank top on wearing panties on her ass only. Her feet were bare, and her hair was wild. She looked at least a hundred pounds lighter. She was almost the same size as me.
She was sweating like a slave.“I knew you would end up in here one day Kisha.” She slurred. I could tell she was coming down off of her high. “Like mother like daughter huh? Do it Kisha, youwant to get high? Do it.” Her head bobbed back and forth. “You always did think you were better.”
I shookmy head as my lips trembled. “I was never like you.”
She smiledshowing that she was missing one of her front teeth now. I couldn’t believe she’d gotten this bad. “That’s right, look at me disgusted and remember why you shouldn’t be here. Get the fuck out of here Kisha…get the fuck out and don’t look back.” She slurred.
I couldn’t stopthe tears from falling from my eyes. I was looking at her, but I saw my face on her body for a few seconds. Backing up I stared at her the whole time as she lightly chuckled.
“Get out Kisha! Mama loves you.”Her voice turned into a whisper. “I sho’ll do love you.” She wiped her own tear. That was it for me. I dashed up out of there and hauled ass full speed with tears running down my face.
“Kisha!”Mya ran after me as I ran right past her while she walked out the store. I was running, but I heard her right on my trail. When I got to the car, I hopped in and slammed the door putting my face in my hands as I sobbed.
“Kisha! What’s wrong?”Mya asked hysterical and out of breath.
“Just get me home Mya….takeme home.” I sobbed.
She lookedworried as she drove me all the way back to the house. The only sounds were my sobbing and her sniffing. I didn’t even know what she was crying for. We made it to the house, and I dashed into the room throwing myself over the bed letting it all out. It was time to let it go. It was time to cry like I never cried before. Eighteen years’ worth of build-up and I made a promise to myself right then and there that I would never look at that shit or put it up in my nose ever again. It was time to lead my own path.
Mya sat thereand allowed me to get everything out without asking questions. I cried myself to sleep and woke up in the middle of the night with Mya sitting in the chair balled up in a throw blanket.
“Mya.”I whispered.
She opened her sleepy eyes.“What happened? Is everything okay?” She asked alert.
I smiled at my friend.“Is Meek here?” I asked.
She shruggedher shoulders and whispered back. “I’m not sure, why?”
I exhaled a sigh of relief.“Good, don’t tell him about this.” I told her.
“About what Kisha?I’m not even sure what happened.” She looked at me crazy.
I’d just thoughtabout something. “Why are we whispering?” I frowned.
She whispered back.“I don’t know.”
We exchangedlooks with each other and had a good laugh before dozing back off; this time Mya got in the bed to get more comfortable and I was happy she was there.
