Page 114 of My Undead Heart

Tonight’s the night. Just another fight for many, but this is the first time Xavier Johnson competes in a UFC octagon, and my first time as a UFC coach. New Year’s Eve in Vegas, no less! To say he’s nervous and anxious is an understatement. Since we arrived last week the kid hasn’t smiled once, and it has nothing to do with his mom’s recovery. She’s here with him, doing well and enjoying a short break in her treatment to come watch her son realize his dream.

“Xavier.” I step into the locker room where he’s been waiting since we warmed up earlier. Headphones on and lying on his back in the center of the table—it’s a strange routine but fighters are superstitious so I don’t question it.

He lifts his head and pulls off his headphones as I approach.

“You ready?” I ask.

His eyes, normally so guarded and focused, widen with alarm and before I can ask what’s wrong, Xavier’s off the table and racing toward the trash can. He pukes his last meal and I pray to God it’s only nerves and not a violent case of the flu. He stops heaving, spits the remaining fluid from his mouth, and wipes the back of his arm over his mouth as he straightens his spine.

“You good now?” I step forward.

His gaze meets mine for a moment before it drops to the floor. “I don’t know if I can do this. I don’t want to let you down.”

“Never. I’m so damn proud of you. You know that?” It’s enough to earn back his attention. “And you don’t do this for me. Not even for your mom. You do this for you, Xavier. Because you’re the one who’s earned a place here. You’ve fought to be in this very room. This is yours. You go in there and you give ’em hell.”

He nods and blows out a breath. “Thanks, Coach.”

“You ready now?” I nod to the door. They’re waiting for us. It’s time.

Gloves on his hands, he slaps them together and bounces on his feet. “Yeah. Yeah, I am.”

Xavier does well. From the moment we step into the arena, he’s all business. All those nerves from before are purged into the trash can along with his last meal. He goes all three rounds, each fighter taking some tough hits to the head and body, but in the end Xavier emerges victorious. A win based on the judges’ points.

It’s a great beginning to what I hope will be a long career for him. He deserves the triumph and I’ll coach him both in and out of the gym on how to handle his sudden success. It’s a lot to take, going from no one to someone in less than fifteen minutes.

Since Xavier’s new, they schedule him as one of the first to compete, and afterwards we join his mom in the arena to watch the rest of the show. Danny and Nikki are here too, but their seats are further up. We make plans to all celebrate together with a late dinner, and for the first time in two months I don’t spend my entire night wishing Mia were here. It’s not that I don’t want her by my side, because I do. It’s more that I’m resolving myself to the fact she’s gone for good. Maybe this is me finally moving on.

After the final match-up on tonight’s card—a brutal bloodbath that sent one guy to the hospital—I turn to Xavier and Chantel.

“What’s the plan, Coach? We still on for dinner?” Xavier says.

“Yeah, we have reservations.” I made them before we left this morning. The restaurant’s in our hotel, so afterwards it’s a simple trip upstairs to crash before catching our flight home. “You ready to head out?”

“Hell, yeah. I’m starving. You hungry, Mom?” he asks. I have to give him credit for not getting caught up in the hype. There’s a big group of tonight’s fighters going out to party and drink, but Xavier’s more concerned about his mother. A young man wise beyond his years.

“Let’s go try and catch a cab.” I take the lead on getting us out of here. The place is packed and we get stopped several times for autographs and photos. By the time we make it outside, wait for a cab, and head to the hotel, it’s already past midnight. A new year.

My phone buzzes with a few incoming texts and I glance down to see my brother asking for an ETA. I reply and let him know we’re only a few minutes out, and he responds with the request to meet him by the elevator banks at the south end of our hotel. That’s strange. I hope everything’s okay or Nikki’s not trying to bail, but before I can ask he sends a message saying our table is ready and they’ve already ordered appetizers. Thank God because I’m starving.

Our cab pulls to the curb and I help Chantel out of the car.

“He did good.” She smiles with so much pride, and it makes me miss my mom.

I nod. “He did good, Chantel. He did good.”

Xavier comes over and takes his mom’s arm to help her inside. She’s doing great but her energy is still low. He’s a good son, attentive and aware.

“I’ll meet you inside,” I say. “I’ve got to grab something first.” Maybe I’m reading into things but Danny’s message seemed out of the ordinary. I wind through the crowded casino floor, in a hurry to see what he needs, but as I come upon the bank of elevators I stop short. Blinking my eyes, I can’t quite believe who I’m seeing. “Mia, what are you ...”

She steps forward, meeting me where I stand. Her hair is down and the red curls tease the open V of her dress. A dress I’m sure is illegal in several countries. It hugs all her beautiful curves in shiny red fabric. Her lips, painted in that same deep red, part on a sigh before they force a grin. “I’m here to collect on my bet. We still have that one date.” Her gaze is guarded, maybe as much as mine.

She’s here in the flesh but I just can’t do this again. I can’t go through this game and lose. My heart can’t take the beat down. “Mia, don’t ... I can’t.”

“Why not?” she snaps and her brows rise, awaiting my answer.

I could lie, but I won’t. Besides, she wants the truth. “Because I’m not interested in one date. I don’t want to trade training for web design. I don’t want a fake girlfriend. What I want, you aren’t willing to give.”

She nods once. “I’ve changed my mind.”

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