Page 87 of On My Side
She wordlessly responds by opening her eyes and meeting mine, arching a single brow and I know she’s taking the challenge I unintentionally gave her.
Audrey with my cock in her mouth, her eyes wild with her own pleasure and determination… might be the single hottest view I’ve ever had in my twenty-six years of life.
As I topple over the edge, I feel her pussy clench around me, a muffled cry as my cum fills her mouth. Her throat bobs as she swallows, but still some dribbles out of her mouth and onto my stomach.
Eyes still on mine, Audrey lifts a trembling hand to her face to wipe the corner of her mouth. I beat her to it, clasping her chin in the hand that had just been inside her, careful not to smear her own arousal on her face. “Let me?” I ask.
She nods in agreement, and I swipe at her mouth with my thumb. She lets out a guttural moan when I slip my thumb into my mouth. I keep my eyes on her as I replace it with my two middle fingers savoring her sweet, musky taste.
I pull her on top of me so she’s straddling my lap. I bring her face to mine, capturing her mouth and slipping my tongue between her lips. She moans into me, and I wonder if it’s because she can taste us together, and the idea of us together in any way possible turns her on as much as it turns me on.
“Stop being so hot,” she murmurs against me, wrapping her arms around my shoulders.
I smirk and pull away. “No, you.”
She throws her head back in laughter, and I take the opportunity to nip at her exposed throat, which quickly transforms her laughter to another moan.
“I don’t want to go,” I admit, soothing the bite with my lips. “I want to stay with you.”
Audrey stiffens in my arms. “You can’t. Piper can’t see you.”
I swallow the lump in my throat that grew from the instant rejection. “I know.”
Tell me you want me to stay, even if I can’t. Tell me you feel this and you want it, too. Tell me you want to fight for whatever the hell this is because I think this is the shit men go to war for.
She’s silent, and my heart constricts with disappointment. I clear my throat and pull away. “I’ll head out.”
Audrey watches from the bed as I find my discarded clothes and pull them back on.
I spiral from the quickness in which Audrey rejected my desire for intimacy, how quickly she made it clear that at the end of the day, I’ll always be a dirty little secret to her.
I thought I was more to her than the voice who got her off, but it turns out I’m nothing but a physical manifestation of Sky.
“I’ll walk you out,” she says quietly, climbing off the bed.
I shake my head. “That’s not necessary.”
“I need to lock the door behind you.” I feel like someone punched me in the face, but nod curtly.
We’re silent when we head out the door, and once I’m outside, I expect to hear the click of the closing door behind me, but instead Audrey encircles my wrist with her hand. “Ren,” she says quietly. “I hurt you. I’m sorry.”
I want to tell her it’s fine so I don’t hurt her feelings, but I’ve spent my entire life being dishonest to fit how I want people tosee me. I thought being honest with her meant that she wanted the truth from me, but I guess it just means she knows how to hit me so it hurts.
“Yeah,” I admit, staring at the grain of the wooden porch. “You did.”
“I’m sorry,” she repeats.
I pull my arm away. “I think I need space,” I admit. I think ripping my heart out and feeding it to Leia would be less painful than this.
“Okay,” she says quietly. “That’s… okay. What should I tell Piper?”
“Nothing. I told you nothing would change with me as her teacher if things changed between us, and I meant it. I’ll see her on Saturday. I need space fromthis.”
Her sharp inhalation of breath is like a stab in the heart. “Okay. Um, have a good night, Ren.”
I’m still staring at the ground when she finally closes the door.
Chapter 28
