Page 4 of We Could Be Better

Hearing Dreka voice always made me feel like a little girl again. I ran and hugged her just like I always did and its crazy because I saw my sister damn near every other day being that we literally stayed about 10 minutes away from each other. My sister was more of the popular one I was laid back and didn’t like being around people not that I’ve always been like that. Once I got with Keith all of that changed though.

“Hey sis!”

“I’m surprised you didn’t cancel on me this morning. Are we still on for lunch”

“Girl bye the was one damn time get over it and yes we are. I really need to talk with you about some things.” Truth be told I needed my big sister more than I’ve ever needed her.

“Do we need to leave now and go grab breakfast?”

“Well maybe we can since you were my first client and the rest is in the evening.” I replied

We left the shop and walked down the street to a little place that serve brunch. I know when I tell my sister everything that has been going on that she would say “I told you so” and she was right she did warn me I was hardheaded though. I guess I just wanted to prove to my mom that someone did love me only thing was I didn’t know if he really did love me. If he did he had a real crazy way of showing it; I was starting to think he had another family somewhere. We never communicated and most nights I was sitting at the table eating alone.

“Girl what is your problem?”

“I haven’t been honest with you sis.”

I saw the way her nose twitch which indicated that she was mad. We had never hid anything from each other and that’s the way it has always been since we were younger. We protected one another and told each other everything.

“What have you done Ky? What is going on?”

“It’s about Keith and me.”

Chapter Five

dreka

See when I walked in that shop this morning I saw the pain written all over my sister face and it was plenty things I let slide, but Ky was my heart I would literally kill a nigga or bitch. Don’t let these red bottoms fool you I would get down with the quickness behind that one. I know she been hurting Ky was big on family and lately when I was around she was depressed but when I asked her was she fine she would just say yes and change the conversation. Well, not today I was about to get it out of her.

“What’s the problem with you and Keith?” I asked her and watched as the tears started to flow.

I didn’t want to be a bitch and say I told you so but it’s the truth. I was to Ky what our mom should have been I watched her back I looked after her when no one else did. I stole food plenty nights just to make sure she ate. Nights I didn’t eat because either I didn’t have enough money or I couldn’t stea much but I always made sure she did and I was only 3 years older than she was.

“He’s never home anymore and when he does decide to come home, it’s like 4 and 5 in the morning. Im tired of it sis. I want to divorce him, but I need your blessings on all of this. He doesn’t touch me or even look at me the same anymore.”

“You know you have my blessings because I told you from jump you were making a mistake. For starters you dint know him that long and I don’t want to hear that bullshit about there’s no time on love. There is sweetie especially when youwere only doing it to get over Cash. Not only were you doing that you wanted to feel like you were somebody and wanted to feel wanted. Dad and I love you very much you didn’t need a man to love you especially his ass, Ky. You were never in love with him you just used him as a rebound now look at you. I didn’t raise you to be weak girl.”

I had never cared for Ky being in that poisonous relationship there’s no way a man should come around and change everything about you. Kyra was so much fun at one time, but it was like over the months he had started controlling her and she could no longer go out with us. Plenty nights she would sit in the house while he was out with his friends or working. It was always something about his snake ass and my sister leaving his ass probably was the best news ever.

It was time for Kyra to get her shit together and start focusing on herself and not anybody else. She had been through so much in her life that all she really wanted was love and a good friend, but she had me for both. I loved her and I was her best damn friend I hadn’t raised her to kiss ass. Kyra was going to do what she had to and be better than I ever was; it was so much in life I had done just to make sure she was a better person. If God come for me today or tomorrow there I nothing I can say that i didn’t do because I had done it all.

When she was younger and would get laughed at for not having the newest gear and shoes I would sell my body to make sure she had. It was sad that I had to do all of that at a young age but my dad was always finding work out of town and the money that he did send my mom would used it to find her next fix. That didn’t matter thought because all I wanted in return from Kyra was for her to become a better person than I ever was. I didn’t need money from her that’s why I never told her how she goteverything. I didn’t want her to go through life trying to prove to our drunken ass mother that she was somebody, because not matter how hard you tried. You just can’t prove something to someone who doesn’t have a heart.

“I went to see mom the other day. I didn’t know dad left.”

I looked up at her just shook my head. I know she didn’t think dad would stay around after we left. He couldn’t stand our mom he only stayed to make sure she didn’t harm us in any kind of way.

“Why did you go back there, Ky? I told you to stay away from her”

“Hey, do you want to come with me to meet my lawyer in the morning” she asked avoiding the question

“Sure now let’s go so you can do my hair. I have a date tonight girl.” I said and we both laughed.

No man has ever kept my attention longer than a day. Only one man did that and he was in jail doing 5 years for a lil drug charge. He should be home soon and I couldn’t wait to see him I just didn’t know how he would feel about my new line of work. Shit I hadn’t had sex since he left I just went on random dates to make time go by, but these niggas aint have shit on my Keem.

Keem was Cash older brother and just like Ky and Cash. I had known Keem damn near my whole life and though he knew what I was doing when I was younger he never judged me. Matter fact he was the one that started giving me money at first we were just cool, but I wanted more and so did he. I was his rider in the streets until I got pregnant with our son Ryder and he made me promise to chill out. I did until he got locked but I couldn’t be a stay at home mom; I was a hustler at heart soI went to Cash and he hooked me up. I was good at what I did and couldn’t anybody take that from me I had been in the streets my whole damn life. But let’s just say things may or may not be peaches and cream once he get home.

Kyra

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