Page 3 of We Could Be Better

“How about you come take a ride with me and we go grab a bite to eat?” She looked like she was hesitant. “I can take you to you favorite place.”

I wasn’t trying to do anything I just wanted to catch up with her and get answers as to why she just up and left. She fucked a nigga head up when she did that shit, but I couldn’t let her know that. Especially since she wasn’t my girl and I wasn’t her man. I know she had feelings for me though just by the way she would roll her eyes at ever girl I brought around and would walk away if I would say something about another girl. I ignored it though because I did the same exact thing when she brought them bogus and niggas around she was dealing with. Unlike her though I put a stop to all her relationships she was mine the day she let me break her virginity.

Our ride to Red Lobster was silent I stole a few glimpses of her, but all she did was keep her eyes glued to her phone as if she was waiting for someone to call. Let me explain my relationship with Kyra. Ever been messing with the one person your whole life but couldn’t be in a relationship with them? Well that’s how it was with us, it was like no matter who she ended up with they would end up breaking up with her because she was still fucking me and vice verse. Only thing was I was fucking my other bitches, but forbid Kyra to let anothernigga fuck what was mine and she agreed. We would both always end up single though once they found out we couldn’t leave each other alone. I just started to think no matter where we were or who we ended up with married in all we would still probably fuck with each other. Crazy right?

Once we got in the restaurant we were immediately seated. While waiting for the waitress I couldn’t help but notice that Ky just couldn’t look at me, it was like she was afraid of me. I couldn’t understand why though I had never hurt her and don’t have any intentions on doing so. I just wanted to bring her out so we can catch up on a few things. I wanted to see how life was going for her. Nothing more nothing less; I was finally happy with someone and planned on marrying my girl Bella. I just wanted to still remain friends with Ky that’s all I ever wanted to be honest.

“So how have you been and what have you been up to for the last 5 years?”

For the first time since we been here she looked up and we locked eyes. The pain was evident but I wasn’t going to address it right now.

“I’ve been good I guess. I own a beauty salon with my cousin Mina.”

“So how is your love life going? Any kids? I noticed when I asked her about kids her eyes started to water.

“No kids and I’ve been married for few months.”

I looked at her shocked now I know what I said before but call me selfish I have always wanted her to myself. I expected her to say im single and going to be forever, but her being married cut me deep.

“So, Cash how have life been treating you. From your wardrobe and the car you are driving I would think that life has been treating you great.”

“Kyra why did you leave?” I asked her avoiding the question she had just asked.

I wasn’t about to tell her anything about my life for all I know she probably came back to plot against me or maybe she is working with the Feds. I don’t trust too many people so I rather avoid the question all together. I noticed her eyes water up when I asked her the question so I just chose to leave it alone, but I was going to find out what her problem was.

“Hey, can we leave I gotta get back home”

“Yeah lets dip.” I peeled a few a few 20’s back and threw them on the table and we left the restaurant.

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“So when will I see you again.” I asked as we pulled back up to her mom crib.

“I don’t know but soon so we can talk some things over.”

“Just don’t disappear on a nigga like that again.” I kissed her cheeked and watched as she went to get in her car. I started getting those same feelings from back in the day just being in her company today, but I pushed it all to the back of my mind. I was going to focus on being that man to Bella that I should’ve been to Krya.

Chapter Four

Kyra

I made it back home a little after midnight to find the same usual thing I always find. Keith was never home and it was starting to become a routine thing. We hardly ever had sex because either he was too tired or had some dumb ass excuse as to why he wouldn’t touch me. I hated going around others and they were happy, but I had to come back home to an empty bed and wondering what was it about me that couldn’t get a man to just love me. I can hear my sister Dreka worlds replay in my head over and over about how I was far too young to marry one man when I wasn’t over the other man.

I walked around here like I had the best relationship on earth, social media would consider us the power couple when in reality I was doing exactly what a lot of other people do on a daily base painting the picture for the world. The attention from everyone was all good until I had to go home and get in a bed by myself wondering where my husband was. He was a lawyer and I know with the crime rate high as ever he was always busy but I didn’t get why he was always rolling in at 4 and 5 in the morning. I just laid back in my bed and let the tears flow.

Being back in my old hood today brought back so many memories. Seeing NIk and Cash had me missing them and regretting going so long without calling or checking on them. I was starting to think that maybe this is the way my life was supposed to be. Maybe it was meant for me to be unhappy and by myself; I mean that is what my mom told me and you know what they say mama is always right. The man that I loved Icouldn’t have and the man that I married no longer loved me. I wanted to so badly run away again but I learned that I could no longer run from any of my problems I just had the be a woman and face them all.

The next morning I woke up to find Keith already gone. I didn’t even trip or call him like I normally do and ask why he didn’t wake me I just got up and started getting dressed for my work day. I had a bust schedule today and Dreka was coming into the shop for her weekly appointment and seeing my sister was always a joy especially since we had so much to talk about. I also wanted to call Onika and meet her with her over the weekend and catch up. I went to sleep a mess but woke up and realized I didn’t have time to dwell on the past. I was seriously thinking divorce my sister was right I hate to admit it, but she was.

“Good Morning Ladies.” I greeted everyone as I walked into my shop.

“Morning Love! We missed you yesterday” my cousin Mina said

“I missed yall too boo, but I enjoyed that off day.” I said through a slight chuckle

Mina and I were always close. My dad and her mom were sister and brother so every summer Drek and I would go stay with them. I swear being there with them I would always feel like I had a real family. Even when we would go back home Mina mom Trina would always call us just to make sure we were good. She treated us more like her kids than our fucked up mom did. I hate that I didn’t have a relationship with my mom and I also hated that she was drinking her life away. But over the years I got over it just like I got over everything else. All I ever wantedto do was help her out but whenever I would try putting her in a rehab she would just run away.

“Hey my baby.”

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