Page 79 of Until I Break

“Night,” Eliza says.

Jasper leaves, and I lay my head back on Julian’s shoulder. He rests his hand on my belly and thigh. “Are we just going to sit here with you buried inside of me?” I ask with my eyes closed.

The blanket is pulled off me, and I smile but don’t move. “She is so fucking wet, man. She has soaked your dick,” Calder remarks.

“You have two options,” Julian says. “One, I lean into your ability to take pain and make it into pleasure and fuck you thoughtless… Or you can get tucked into bed, and we can continue this later.”

“So, get fucked or go to sleep?” I ask.

“Yes.”

“Well, fuck me then, obviously,” I say and laugh when he repositions us so I am on my belly. He pulls me up to my knees with a tight grip on my waist. With one brutal thrust, he slams into my pussy, making me moan into the cushion. He starts to hammer into me, fucking me hard and deep. I scream every time he bottoms out and slams against my cervix, but I push my hips back for more. Instead, he pushes me forward and plants his hands on the couch beside me so he can pound me into the cushion. He grunts and moans as I am edging on an orgasm.

“Oh, fuck,” I moan as my body trembles under him. My orgasm drags him down into his own as he rails into me harder. When he explodes, it sends me spiraling into a catatonic state where I am floating in the clouds.

Twenty Seven

Cassidy

One Week Later

All week we havebeen in the house, and I am going insane. I love being here with these guys, but Eliza and I desperately need time away from them. There is so much testosterone in this house that it’s overwhelming. We have been fucked into a stupor every day by all of them. Well, Calder hasn’t fully fucked me yet, and Oscar hasn’t gone after Eliza yet, but it’s coming soon. He told me last night that he is finding amusement in her anticipation. She is constantly on edge thinking he’s going to corner her. Julian told me he thinks that Oscar is sensing that she might not be ready, so he is waiting for something specificfirst. Both Eliza and Julian told me that Calder is afraid of triggering me, so he is going slow to ease his own mind.

I have a scene every night with Ryan. He and I go down to the basement alone and work on sensory play, impact play, and even temperature play. Once I get more comfortable and we can go, he wants me to experience the bullwhip. I would need to be restrained, and I’m just not there yet. I have gotten really good at not moving, though, so it’s an improvement.

“Think they will let us?” I ask.

“Hmm. I think so,” Eliza says hopefully. “If not, we can sneak out.”

“You rebel,” I laugh.

“What are you two plotting?” Oscar asks, pulling my head back and kissing me.

“We want to go up to the bookstore,” I say. “I doubt I’ll get my Kindle back anytime soon, and I need to read smut.”

“Need?” he laughs.

“Yes, need,” Eliza says. “You boys watch your porn; we read it.”

“What kind of word porn are you reading?” he asks, looking between us.

We grin at each other before saying “guy on guy smut,” at the same time. He laughs and shakes his head at us.

“It’s very educational,” I say. “I’ve learned all sorts of new words.”

“Oh?” he asks, raising an eyebrow in trepidation. Oscar’s still very shy about being bisexual, so I know this conversation is hard for him, even despite us being supportive.

“Mhmm. Apparently, some men refer to a man’s ass as a boy pussy,” I tell him.

“Mmm. Oscar likes when I pound into his boy pussy,” Gunner says, throwing his arm around Oscar’s shoulders.

“Asshole,” Oscar laughs. He tries to shrug him off, but Gunner grabs his face and kisses him hard. For the first time, he fully melts and lets the kiss turn more passionate. Eliza and I squeal and clap watching this play out.

“Hot,” Julian says. When they pull away, Oscarblushesat Julian. The guys haven’t really mingled much outside of their norm, but I am suspecting more will happen soon.

“The girls want to go up to the bookstore to get Cassidy a new Kindle, since the FBI has hers.”

“Oh, that’s right. You left it at the apartment,” Julian says. “It’s just a few miles down the road. I don’t see why not. It will give them time away from us, at least.”

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