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“Well, yeah, for starters,” Julian says. “He beat you, raped you, andabused you. Calder and I can attest to that. So we file a restraining order and go from there.”

“That won’t stop him,” I say, shaking my head. “It’s just a piece of paper.”

“If he violates the restraining order, he goes to jail,” Calder says.

“Unless he doesn’t get caught,” Erica says what I am thinking. “Believe me, they don’t care.”

“See?” I say. How does she know, though? Does she have an obsessive ex, too?

“Baby steps,” Ryan says. “We report it and go from there.”

“You need to be able to have full confidence in us,” Calder says. “He will probably try to continue to harass us with videos.”

“I can do that. Can you do the same for me?” I ask. “If you get a video of me on my knees sucking someone off, you won’t overreact?”

“No more than you did,” Ryan says with a grin, making Calder and Julian chuckle.

“Haha, asshole,” I say with a frown.

“Careful, Kitten. I might just have to take yours,” Ryan muses.

“I have a safe word,” I say with a shrug. “Plus, I’ll just tie you to the bed and fuckyourass.”

“Ah. That’s fun. Until he wakes and comes after you,” Erica cackles. Fear flashes in her eyes momentarily until I laugh at her memory.

“Are you a dominant or submissive?” I ask her.

“Submissive,” Ryan laughs at the same time she says dominant.

“Glad we cleared that up,” I laugh.

“She is an alpha brat,” Ryan says. “It takes a lot to get her to submit. Otherwise, she leads.”

“What’s that compared to a regular brat?” I ask.

“A regular brat acts out when they are in need of something but struggle to communicate that for reasons like trauma. You are a brat when you are triggered, or your emotions are too strong for you to fall back in. You specifically need reassurance and guidance out of emotion,” Julian says. “An alpha brat is someone who needs to feel secure to bend. They’re more headstrong and very independent.”

“So, bossy brats,” I say, and Erica laughs.

“So, let’s go to the cops and get this ball rolling,” Julian says to me. “Is that good?”

“Yeah,” I say with a sigh.

I don’t have a good feeling about this, but I am putting faith in them and their ability to keep me safe from Troy. I know we have a lot of healing to do individually and as a group.

Fourteen

Eliza

Six Months Later

What a fucking whirlwindlife has been. Living with three dominant men who are all equally submissive with each other is chaotic, but amazing. It’s not to say it hasn’t been a rough road, but we have managed beautifully. Even when we argue, we find a common path forward. As time passes, we have learned more about one another on a deep level, and we have a more positive outlook on our relationship as a result.

Julian and Calder finally admitted that they have been in a sexual relationship since they were in college. They told Ryanand me about how they shared a dorm room, and they got shit-faced drunk together. One thing led to another, and Julian fucked Calder. That led to Calder thanking him while sober by waking him with his dick in his mouth. Julian returned the favor, and it grew from there. They had more of an open relationship because they still messed around with women together and separately but always stayed together. When I moved in, they stopped. They didn’t think it was right to do anything if they hadn’t told me because then it would be cheating to them because they wanted something real with me. Now that they are owning their sexuality and enjoying each other no matter who knows, it has made them so much happier.

Julian and I have grown significantly as individuals and partners. He has managed his mental health to a point where he can separate me from the trauma that has been inflicted on him. He has grown comfortable with fully dominating me, and we have been working on submissive training so that I better understand a healthy Dom/sub relationship and he understands and trusts that I will speak up. We haven’t gone near CNC, but it is on our list of goals. After Troy tricked him into hurting me, he struggled with guilt and self-loathing, but allowing himself to feel everything with Calder and Ryan helped significantly.

Troy has spent his time on house arrest after my fake account was successfully tracked back to Troy’s phone. We couldn’t find proof that he had done something to my phone, but Detective Jasper Omen said that between setting me up to be raped and the fake AI video, he will be in jail for a long time. The court date has been pushed out for so long that we are just now going to end this once and for all. Troy was able to get bail but is confined to his house. I have a temporary order of protection, but it doesn’tmatter with him being unable to leave. If he does, they’ll know immediately.

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