Page 46 of Mayfly

Jude’s lips graze over mine as I bring power back to my thrusts. And I can feel them moving, trying to speak. Trying to hold it together.

“Come on, you can do it,” I tease, pounding into him even harder on his next attempt at forming words.

He bares his teeth, but the snarl he attempts is pathetic.

“At least I know how to shut you up. If you annoy me too much, I’ll just fuck you dumb and we both win.”

A shaky hand reaches back to grab onto my hair, and his body slouches further.

His other hand offers minimal support on the desk, but he refuses to allow his head to leave my shoulder.

“It's about you, Curren… That’s my answer.”

I slow to a stop; my temples pulsing.

I hold my breath, not sure how to react. Unsure if I even understand him correctly.

Slipping free from his warmth, I spin him around.

Jude slumps back on the desk, and his hands fall behind him for balance. “More.”

“Say it again.”

“Not till you give me more.” Leaning back on his elbows, Jude lifts his heels onto the desk.

I grip his hips and pull him into position. “Look at me.”

I watch as Jude’s eyes linger a moment longer between his legs, then rake up my torso to finally meet mine.

I press the head of my cock back against him. “I wanna see how I feel.” His eyelids flutter and struggle to stay open as I sink back inside him. “Now say it again.”

He reaches for me.

I wrap both arms around his back and lift his chest to mine.

“It was you.”

“Say it again.”

“It was you.”

“Fuck,” I keen, ploughing into him faster with each thrust. “Again!”

“Everything has always onlyeverbeen about you—ah,” he moans—all pleasure; one arm falling limp as the other drapes around my shoulders. “It started in Juvie. I’d imagine you as a man… How tall you’d be… How strong… How much you could hurt me… I’d imagine Dad sitting in the corner instead of me, forced to watch you cover me in bruises so he could see that my pain never belonged to him.”

Goddamn.

“You own me as well,” I tell him. “You always have. I’ll do anything to keep you safe. Anything. I’ll destroy this entire city if it means you’ll be the one person left untouched.”

"It's my job to keep you safe."

"Jude—"

"Now I can do it properly."

"But you always did."

“Please don’t leave me.”

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