Page 34 of Our Hearts to Break

Leaning forward, I take his bottom lip into my mouth and suck. Whenever I touch River, he bends to my will like clay for me to mold. He shifts beneath me, his cock brushing mine. I take him in my hand, and he moans into my mouth, deepening the kiss.

As our lips separate, River slides his hands over my abs. A shiver rolls down my arms, the sensation going straight to my cock.

“If you don’t fuck me, I will die.”

“That’s not possible,” I say with a cocky grin. “You can’t die from lack of orgasms.”

He flicks his tongue over my nipple, eyes on me. “No more talking. I need your big cock in my ass.”

I slip my hand beneath his chin. “This is real, Riv. You and me.”

He nods. “I know you love me. And it’s okay if you wake up tomorrow and realize I’m not enough. Just give me tonight.” River hooks his arms around me. “I want one perfect night with you.”

My heart races at his confession, and my mouth suddenly feels too dry. One perfect night means I have to be perfect. How can I be? I’ve never had sex with a man before. This might suck for him and send him running out the door.

Our friendship is on the line.

And so are our hearts.

With a shaky hand, I flip open the lube and glide it down my shaft, eying up River’s hole. I fight the nerves slithering down my back, arms, and legs. If River notices, he doesn’t say anything.

Every man is anxious the first time he has sex. While I’ve been with plenty of beautiful women, I have yet to experience anal with a man. So, I have every right to be mentally freaking the fuck out.

River digs his heel into my ass, then squeezes his legs around me. “Make love to me, Nate.”

One of many firsts for me.

I usually take women rough and fast, not slow and tender. But River is not a woman, and for the first time, I’m having sex with someone I love. A man I have probably been in love with for years yet was too self-absorbed to notice.

No longer thinking about the act or worrying about our friendship, I line up my cock at his entrance and push the tip inside. He grunts at the sudden intrusion, eyes half closed.

“You good, Riv?”

He nods, biting his bottom lip.

“What does it feel like?”

“Like you’re stretching me out.”

I slide in another inch, and he hisses.

“Be more specific.”

“It stings,” he admits. “But it doesn’t last long.”

I fill him up.

His eyes slam shut. “Oh, fuck!”

“How about now?”

“Fuck,” he growls. “That feels… amazing.”

“Yeah?”

He nods. “Fuck, yeah.”

This is the first time either of us has had raw sex. We’re both clean and trust each other. Knowing River would keep my heart safe, I could carve it from my chest and give it to him. There’s no one on this planet I trust more.

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